The Proposal: Chapter 12 (NC-17)

As they kissed, Jax reached up, planning to move Keesha's hand away from the sheet she was holding against her body. He was pleasantly surprised as her fingers loosened on their own, and she let the material glide down her body, leaving her nude once more. She knelt even straighter, cupping his face in her hands as she took the initative to slow their kiss. He smiled.

"Something amuses you?" she whispered.

"Your...honesty is rather wonderful. You hold back nothing."

Keesha glanced down for a moment.

Almost nothing. There was one thing she would never tell Jax. The fact that she was in love with him, she had decided was a secret she would take to her grave.

But at least now, she knew how to show him. She looked back up and said simply, "You said I was to be honest with you when we are together like this."

"Yes. However, it is still wonderful to actually know you are being so. It means that you trust me, and that makes me smile."

"So, in order to make you smile, all I have to do is say that I trust you."

Jax laughed. "Something like that."

"Really. I shall have to remember that. I would enjoy seeing such a lovely smile more often."

Jax broke eye contact, and Keesha grinned as he grew slightly flustered by her compliment. She reached out, touching his chin and tilting his face back up so she could stare into his eyes once more. "I do trust you, Jax." her smile faded and she grew serious. "And not just now. Had I not trusted you, I never would have married you to begin with. And if I did not trust you outside these doors, I would not trust you when we're alone with the doors closed."

Her words touched his heart, and Jax found himself completely unable to come up with an adequate response. Nothing he could say would let Keesha know how much what she said meant to him.

"You promised to smile," Keesha added, hoping to break some of the tension she obviously caused.

Jax blinked slowly, and then a small smile teased against his lips, his blue eyes shining. He stepped closer and kissed Keesha once more, his hand brushing down her back.

Jax pulled away slightly, trailing his tongue down her lips. Her eyes closed once more and he caught her chin gently between his teeth before moving lower, and kissing her throat. Keesha opened her eyes again, exhaling as she wrapped her fingers through his hair, holding him tightly to her.

Jax leaned over, leading Keesha to recline in the bed, her body resting against his arms. He laid down on top of her briefly and then rolled them over, placing her on top. She sat up, resting against his body and opened her eyes. This was an odd position of sorts, however she liked it immensly, it allowed her to see all of him at one time. Jax opened his eyes, his fingers trailing gently up her spine. She bent forward, kissing his lips as slowly she slid herself down, her naked skin gliding over his as she reclined on top of him once more.

His hand swept down her entire body as they kissed; when it brushed the curve of her rear, it tickeled slightly and Keesha giggled. Jax grinned widely against her mouth, giving her lips a simple peck. His other hand pushed her hair away from her face and he kissed her again.

Keesha reached up with one hand, her fingers gently travelling the length of his arm before resting against his face. She shifted downward, moving her other hand so she could cup his face within them. She pulled her lips from his and Jax groaned in protest. She stroked his cheeks with her thumbs as her mouth tasted the skin of his throat, her tongue trailing across it before she sucked gently against the side. His mouth parted slightly and he exhaled, running his fingers through her hair.

Keesha leaned up once more, brushing her lips across his. Jax opened his mouth to hers, but that was all. His goal this time was to allow her to take as much control as she could; he just hoped he was not expecting too much. Soon he his fears were assuaged as without a thought she slid her tongue into his mouth, kissing him deeply. He cupped her face into his hands and answered her need hungrily, already he began to throb beneath her. After a moment she pulled away, breathless.

Control or no conrtol, there were some calls that Jax refused to let go unanswered. He leaned up slightly, pulling Keesha back and kissing her again. His hands left her face and he dragged them roughly down her sides-she moaned against his mouth and kissed him fierecly.

Jax sat up, gathering Keesha to him and leading her to kneel across from him, her body resting against her heels. He pulled her closer, burying his face against her chest. She looked down at him, running her tongue across her lips as she waited.

Jax kissed her breasts gently, running his tongue over them, then down into the small space which seperated them. Keesha closed her eyes, sighing deeply. He took a breast into his mouth, suckling on it gently at first, but when she moaned, his mouth increased it's pressure until she arched, groaning his name loudly. He moved to the other breast, tracing the edge of her nipple with his tongue, before outlining the sensitive area on the underside. She arched once more, taking in a deep breath.

Jax ran his tongue down the middle of her chest, sweeping his hands over her stomach. Keesha finally exhaled, breathing his name with a quivering sigh. Her abdominals tightened and she groaned. She pulled back, bending as she led his face up, kissing his lips passionately.

Jax led Keesha to rest in the bed, still kissing her as he laid down on top of her. She waited, remembering that holding him was the best part of what was next, and her body tried to prepare itself.

Yet, Jax shifted further down her body. Keesha opened her eyes, confused as he positioned himself between her legs. He kissed her once more and then his mouth drew gently down her body...Keesha closed her eyes. She remembered now, and she loved this part. She moaned as his tongue delved into her navel. Jax sucked against it, and she groaned againm running her fingers through the softness of his hair.

Jax stopped and Keesha opened her eyes once more, looking down at him. After a moment, Jax kissed her stomach again, moaning as the taste of Keesha invaded his senses once again. He could not get enough of the way she tasted...he travelled down.

Keesha gasped, her hips arching as he kissed her sensually down below. She tightened her grip on his hair, planning to beg him to stop. But...it felt so wonderful...

Keesha swallowed, arching again with a moan. Jax felt her loosen her hold on his hair, and realized she was not going to fight him. Which was good, he grabbed on to her waist, pulling her even further down, closer to him as he continued...because there was no way he planned to stop.

Unable to contain herself, Keesha writhed beneath his ministarations, grabbing on to the edge of the sheets. Jax let go of her waist, he pushed a finger up within her, meanwhile his mouth and tongue continued tasting her. She moaned in ecstacy, the deep sounds increasing his own desire.

Keesha felt her body tighten at it's core, and her eyes opened.

Jax heard her call his name, questioning, but he refused to answer. At least not now. He withdrew his hand, holding on to her hips once more, his mouth continuing.

Keesha held onto the sheets tightly, afraid to let go as her body arched again, shuddering as a release ripped through her. She collapsed back down on the bed, her heart racing, her breath erratic. Jax kissed the inside of her thigh and finally looked up at her. She whispered the only words she could think of. "Thank you."

Jax laughed, the deep sound filling the room. "You are most welcome my lady," he grinned, coming back up her body and kissing her as he rested fully on top of her.

Jax rolled them over, placing her on top of him once more. "Now...we shall be together again, another way."

"Another way?"

"Yes...what is wrong?" he asked, his brow furrowing at the somewhat disappointed look on her face.

"Nothing..."

"Keesha?"

"I...I enjoy holding you to me, and if we try this...this way, then how will I be able to?"

"You want to hold me?"

"I am sorry, I am being selfish..."

"No...that is one of the...sweetest things anyone has ever said to me. However...one day, you must allow me the joy of being the one to hold you."

"Jax..."

"But, until then..." he sat up, guiding Keesha to his lap. "We will compromise."

Jax kissed Keesha fully, enclosing her into his arms. "Wrap yourself around me," he mumbled, kissing her again.

Keesha returned his kiss, her legs wrapping around his waist. "Like this?"

"Yes..." Jax lifted her, guiding her over him. "Now...come down. At any pace you wish, I have hold of you," he promised.

Keesha blinked, resting her hands against his shoulders. She closed her eyes as she lowered herself carefully, preparing to slow herself once the pain began. Jax groaned as she enveloped him partially, his hands squeezed against her body, waiting.

Keesha opened her eyes. The shock had left her, but this time no pain followed. She continued, sighing as she felt him filling her. Her body wanted more of him, and she quickened her pace; very soon she had enveloped him entirely.

"All right?" he choked.

Keesha moaned deeply; Jax felt so heavenly inside of her. She buried her face against his shoulder. She wanted him to move, the way he had before.

"Keesha..." he groaned, his hands sweeping up her back and resting against her shoulders as he fought his urges to thrust within her.

"Move," she pleaded with a whisper. "Jax, please..." she shifted slightly, and her eyes opened as a sensation went through her body. Perhaps...

Jax tilted his head back, groaning as Keesha began to move herself. She answered his groan with her own, lifting her head from his shoulder. He began to match her slow, deliberate motions with his own, and she sighed, burying her face again, this time against his throat.

Keesha held onto Jax, feeling her body tighten as it had just a moment before. She called his name and they quickened their pace.

Suddenly, Keesha froze, and then her body shuddered, releasing again. She lifted her head and now Jax buried his in her throat. She held him closely to her and he thrust into her again, moaning as he gave into his own climax.

Jax ran his fingers down her spine as Keesha slowly loosened her grip around him. She tilted his face up and he smiled into her eyes before kissing her tenderly.

Jax pushed her hair back, gathering her to him as he reclined. Keesha rested against his chest, closing her eyes as he stroked her back.

Keesha awoke, finding herself on her laying on her back. Jax was sleeping against her shoulder, his arm draped possessively across her body. She eased away slowly, climbing out of the bed. She took the cover from the foot of the bed, wrapping herself.

Jax opened his eyes, watching as Keesha went to the window. She peaked outside, her eyes growing as she saw it was day. All this time he had let her stay. She sighed softly and Jax smiled.

Keesha truly belonged to him now. And he belonged to her. He had never imagined making love to someone could be so magical; his heart started to race.

He had never really imagined making love at all.

"Ich liebe dich."

Keesha blinked, turning away from the window. "What?"

"That was German," Jax said softly.

"What did you say?"

I love you. He translated in his mind.

Jax sighed. "Haven't we had enough lessons as of late?" he held out his hand and Keesha came over to him. She laughed as he pulled her the rest of the way to him suddenly, straddling her across his back. He tilted his head looking at her as he ran his fingers over her legs.

"You will teach me later?" she smiled, tracing a small mole he had on his back. She bent forward, kissing it softly.

"One day, perhaps." He tickled her and she laughed.

One day.