Chapter 76
<![CDATA[ As they kissed, Jax picked Keesha up, carrying her over in front of the
roaring fireplace. He settled her gently on the ground, resting on top of
her. They rolled over, placing her on top and very slowly he pulled the
zipper to her dress down.
Keesha sat up, straddeling against his stomach. Jax opened his eyes,
looking up at her as she eased the material away from her body, rising
slightly to remove it completely. Slowly his eyes swept the length of
her, his mind and body lavishing on every detail...the curved tops of her
breasts peaking out from under her midnight blue boostier...down, gazing
at the flatness of her exposed stomach. His eyes finally met hers once
more, and he took a breath, waiting.
Keesha bent forward and began kissing his neck. Jax wrapped his fingers
into her hair, groaning as she tasted his skin hungrily. Quickly he
unsnapped her bra, grabbing it with one hand and tossing it aside. With
another groan he dragged his hands roughly up her smooth back, his body
arching in pleasure.
Jax guided Keesha away from his throat, leaning up and gathering her into
his arms. He pulled back some so he could get a full view of her once
more. He cupped her breasts in his hands, melding them together.
Jax kissed the tops of her mounds gently, running his tongue slowly across
them, then down into the cleavage his hands had formed. "Jax..." Keesha
breathed, her fingers clenching against the rug below them.
In response, Jax took one breast into his mouth, suckling on it softly at
first, then giving it one hard suck. "Oh, God..." Keesha moaned deeply.
Jax flicked his tongue across her nipple, using it to trace the edges of
the straining dark bud. He reached up and kneaded her breast, meanwhile
his mouth moved over to the other one....tracing the edge of her nipple,
flicking his tongue across it and then taking her breast into his mouth
and suckling on it, hard.
Keesha arched against Jax helplessly, a shudder going through her body to
her very core. He leaned up once more.
Keesha opened her eyes and looked at Jax, the flickering light from the
fireplace dancing off his beautiful face. Her heart began to race once
more as his desire for her darkened his blue-green eyes.
Jax broke eye contact, his gaze moving to her mouth. Keesha watched as he
drew closer leaning into her so she could feel his warm breath against her
lips. Her eyes fluttered closed as he placed a tiny kiss on her top
lip...then her bottom one. Her mouth parted with a small moan and he
kissed her gently.
"Lovely." Jax whispered against her mouth, wrapping his arms around Keesha
and pulling her into his body, kissing her passionately.
With a groan, Keesha returned his kiss hungrily, her tongue meeting and
stroking against his, relishing the sweetness of his mouth. His hands
slid down her back, brushing against her behind and even through the satin
material of her underwear, his light touch sent a shock through her entire
body. She tore her mouth from Jax, arching with a gasp.
Jax ran his tongue up her neck slowly, past her chin, over her lips, and
Keesha kissed him again, fiercely.
Jax reached up, caressing her face with his hands, staring into her eyes
again. Keesha ran her fingers down the silky fabric of his tan shirt and
Jax watched as she slowly unbuttoned the garment.
Keesha stared intently at his chisled chest muscles peaking out from under
his shirt. She pulled it open slightly, sighing at the sight of his
stomach, wondering if she would ever get used to the perfection that was
him.
She ran her fingers down his bare chest, and he groaned as a shudder went
through his body. She glanced back up into his eyes, easing his shirt
over his shoulders until it fell to his waist. Jax gave her a small grin,
pulling the bottom of his shirt from his pants and removing it completely.
Slowly she fumbled with the belt of his pants...unbuckling it and easing
it from around his waist. He led her face back to hers, drowning in the
taste of her lips as she unbuttoned his slacks, pulling the material aside.
She reached down inside of his boxers, her fingers brushing past the nest
of hair directly above, going down...
Jax groaned, jumping in her hands as she touched him lightly. "Keesha,
please..." he begged her with a whisper.
Keesha began to stroke him, her small fingers wrapping around him as best
she could. Jax took a breath, groaning again, and she continued, moving
faster and harder.
However, soon, Keesha was unsatisfied with the restraints his remaining
clothing provided. She pulled her hands from him. "Lie down." she
ordered softly.
Jax opened his eyes again.
"Now."
Her eyes followed as Jax reclined on the floor. Keesha grabbed the edge
of his pants, pulling them down, taking his boxers with them. His eyes
remained fixated on her body as she stood, peeling off her underwear, and
rolling them down her legs.
Silently Keesha came back over to Jax, lowering so she was hovering just
above him. She kissed him gently, finally resting on top of him. She
shifted down, gliding her nude body over his, sending shock waves of
excitement through them both. Her soft kisses trailed past his lips, down
the dimple of his chin, over to his throat. She could hear his breaths
coming sharp and fast, as he pulsated almost unbearably beneath her body.
She ran her tongue down the middle of his chest, sweeping her hands over
his stomach. His muscles tightened, and a moan escaped his lips. Darting
her tongue into his navel, her hands reached even lower...one stroking him
once more, as the other massaged.
Keesha gasped as Jax flipped them over, so he was on top. "My turn." he
winked with a devilish gleam in his eyes. He trailed butterfly kisses
down her body, his excitment growing as he heard her breathing become more
labored. His tongue darted into her navel, and he smiled in satisfaction
as she moaned his name. He moved his kisses even further...
Keesha arched against Jax, calling his name again. He tasted her fully,
deeply, trying to satisfy his need for her, though he knew that day would
never come . Her low sounds of ecstacy increased his own desire, and he
continued, alternating his mouth with his hands, every now and again,
using both, causing her body to arch sharply. "Please..."
Jax looked up at Keesha, his breaths harsh, his eyes glassy. She watched
as he came back up her body, resting on top of her again with a gentle
kiss.
Keesha took control, kissing Jax passionately. "I love you..." he mumbled
against her lips.
"I love you too..." her body arched as Jax entered her fully in one swift
stroke. Together they moaned and he grabbed on to the edge of the carpet.
With a breath, Keesha wrapped her arms around his back.
Jax started to move slowly, drawing almost all the way out, and then
surged fully back into Keesha once more.
"Jax..." Keesha called, sweeping her hands up his back and resting them on
his shoulders, attempting to hold him to her as he drew back. She lifted
her hips, meeting his thrusts with her own. Her hands lowered, trailing
down his back and resting against his waist.
Jax buryied his face against the side of her neck, taking in her
enchanting scent. He felt Keesha contract around him and quickened their
pace, growling her name.
Once more Keesha arched, freezing briefly, calling his name one last time.
Her release ripped through her, until she finally collapsed on the floor,
her heart racing. With one last thrust, Jax climaxed, and she held him
tightly, her body shuddering once more.
Jax kissed the side of her neck, and then tilted his head to look into her
eyes. He smiled as he found Keesha already looking at him. Her entire
face lit up as he grinned. His grin faded and he repeated softly. "I
love you Keesha."
"I love you too Jax." she answered, kissing him tenderly.
The next morning Keesha woke up to the sound of coffee brewing in the
kitchen. She smiled as she found a robe laid out for her on the sofa.
Standing she went over, putting on the robe and was about ready to go into
the kitchen when there was a knock on the door. She jogged over and
opened it, her smile fading. "What?"
She really had to learn to check and see who it was.
Carly looked at Keesha's slightly disheveled appearance. "Am I
interrupting something."
"What?"
"Jason needs to see Jax."
"Then Jason can call Jax." Keesha finished, closing the door.
"Who was that?"
Keesha turned and looked at Jax. "Carly." she rolled her eyes. "It seems
Jason needs to see you."
"Oh." Jax handed her a cup of espresso. "Is that all?"
"Yes...you know you ask me that a lot."
"What?"
"I tell you something, and then you ask me if it's all. Why is that?"
she watched as Jax walked away from her, sitting on the sofa. "Jax?"
"It's just a question."
"I've said before, nothing you do is mere, and nothing you ask is just.
There's always a reason for things you want to know."
"Did you have a good time last night?"
"Don't change the subject on me."
"I'm not."
"Okay...what gives?" Keesha set her cup down on the desk. "There has
been something right on the verge of your lips ever since...what happened.
So what is it? Or shall I guess?"
Jax looked at Keesha, taking another sip of coffee.
"Jerry says that you're worried all the time, and I was telling myself it
must be about work, but I realize that it isn't."
"You talk to Jerry a lot don't you..."
Keesha blinked, noticing Jax's brief decent into anger. He cleared his
throat. "Never mind."
"No, obviously we should talk about this. Yes, I talk to Jerry...I *like*
Jerry, why would you have a problem with that?"
"I don't..."
"But..." she waited.
"Keesha, drop it."
"I don't want to drop it."
"Yeah, well we can't always get what we want. The matter is closed." Jax
stood. "I'm taking a shower." he decided.
And at that moment she knew. "Damn it Jax! Will you yell at me, please!"
"I don't want to yell at you!" Jax barked. He sighed, bending his head.
"Arguing will get us nowhere..." he finished quietly.
"No, ignoring this will get us nowhere. You're still very angry
about...about..."
"The fact that you *lied* to me." Jax finished for her, his voice growing
deep.
Keesha waited.
"The fact that I *trusted* you, and you turned out just to be like
everyone else, and went around doing what you wanted, in my name. The
fact that I had *every* right to know what was going on in my own life,
but you conspired to keep that from me...and had you not...then I could
have stopped this before it got out of hand and you and Jerry and Marcus
could have DIED!"
"What makes you think you could have stopped anything, Jax..."
"What makes you think you could protect me by lying?"
"I'm sorry..."
"I don't want you to be sorry! I want to be able to trust you with
everything I have, like I did once!"
"And you can't do that..." Keesha's voice trailed as her heart began to
break.
Jax sighed deeply, not answering.
"I understand that....I'm..." she was about ready to apologize again, but
realized it wouldn't change anything. "I understand that. And you have
every right not to trust me. But..." she walked over carefully. "...I
will do my very best to show you that I've learned from my mistakes...and
maybe one day you will trust me again." she continued looking into his
eyes, hoping upon hope there was a chance they could really get back what
they had before she...
"I messed up, and I'm sorry...and there's no excuse. None. But it won't
happen again."
"I don't need you protecting me Keesha."
Keesha nodded in agreement.
"I don't need you going behind my back, and trying to stop me from
hurting...and doing what you think is best, because I deserve to
know...I...." Jax closed his eyes as reality actually hit him.
"Jax?"
"My God..."
Keesha watched as he went over to the sofa.
"I'm just like....I am...damn it..." Jax turned, looking at Keesha. He
reached his hand out.
She came over, taking it and he settled her on his lap. "I have to tell
you something. Something I should have told you long ago."
Shani
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