Jax gently pulled away from their kiss, opening his eyes and looking at Keesha. Slowly, her own eyes opened and she searched his face, hoping she would not find any doubt resonating.

Jax stared into her dark brown eyes, losing himself as he always did-always, from the first moment he looked into them. For so many years, it was a feeling he would not trade for anything - that amazement that he felt looking into his wife's eyes. Yet now, since it had been so very long and so much pain had come between them-a small part of him feared allowing himself to be so close to Keesha once more.

Jax broke eye contact, and Keesha glanced down at her wedding band. Her heart raced as she realized he probably was not yet ready to take that next step with her. She forced her eyes not to tear and said quietly, "It's okay."

Keesha closed her eyes as Jax touched her cheek. She had managed to do it again; once again her words reminded him just how much she loved him - even though the word love never had escaped her lips.

And he realized there was nothing to fear...why should he be afraid of adoring someone who loved him as much.

Despite it all.

"I love you, Keesha."

His fingers found her mouth and instictively her lips parted. Jax traced her mouth softly.

Keesha opened her eyes, her heart racing. She loved Jax so much, she would wait for him as long as he needed, to finally be able to truely trust their love once more. How could she not wait for him? He was everything to her.

Yet, Keesha needed Jax so badly; she missed him so very much. He had to be completely oblivious to the desire he caused within her, or else he would never look at her like that-his crystal clear eyes gazing at her adoringly as he whispered words of love; his fingers lingering upon her mouth as his own perfect lips were only a breath away...calling to her...

Keesha lost herself, leaning into answer. Just at his mouth, she remebered-this was not the time. "I love you too, Jax." She looked up at him once more, cupping his face into her hands. "Please...go..." she begged, knowing she could not fight herself a second longer.

Jax blinked, confused. Yet, he merely nodded. He had put Keesha through so much; if she was not ready, then she was not ready and he would not question her about it. He would just wait. "If that's what you want." he agreed. But...she was so beautiful...he could not leave, not until...

Jax bent forward, kissing Keesha one more time. After a long while he forced himself to pull away.

"One more..." Keesha breathed, leaning in and kissing Jax again.

Jax returned her slow kiss tenderly, and Keesha lost herself completely. She knelt even straighter in the bed, managing to draw him closer as she deepened their kiss. He tasted so wonderful...and it had been too long...

Jax wrapped his arms around Keesha, holding her close to him...she moaned softly, and his senses exploded. He kissed her passionately, his need for her so urgent that when he finally managed to pull away, her lips still throbbed from the feel of his against them.

Keesha tried to catch her breath, running her tongue across her mouth, trying to lock the taste of Jax into her memory...she reached out, touching his own lips with her fingers. Barely she heard him as he said...

"If you want me to leave, we need to stop this now."

Instantly she answered, "I don't want you to go."

Jax kissed Keesha again.


"I don't want to stop..." Jax promised before kissing Keesha again, fiercly. He pulled away again, nuzzling against her neck, sucking against the skin.

Keesha tilted her head back, whispering, "Jax..."

Jax trailed kisses up the front of her throat, past her chin, finally finding her mouth once more. Keesha kissed him again, passionately at first-but then she slowed their pace.

Wanting to savor every, single, moment.

Jax returned her kiss deeply, following her leisurely pace. His hands stroked her sides through the material of her t-shirt...he moved them underneath and Keesha shuddered slightly as his warm hands touched her skin. Quickly he pulled the material over her head, tossing it to the ground before wrapping his arms around her once more, kissing her again.

Jax broke the kiss, staring down, mesmorized, as always by the wonderful contrast in her body...the slight roundness of her breasts peaking out from the top of her bra...he ran his hands slowly up the front of her body, his fingers trapping underneath her breasts. His thumbs carressed their curves through lacy material of her bra and Keesha arched against him. His tongue delved inside her cleavage formed; she moaned, wrapping her fingers into his hair.

Jax pulled away, staring down once more, this time fascinated by the curves of her hips as he dragged his hands roughly downwards...he slid, reclining on his stomach, directly across from Keesha.

Keesha watched as Jax continued studying her body, revering every detail as he gazed at the flatness of her abdominals. He trailed butterfly kisses slowly around her stomach and she closed her eyes once more, moaning again, louder. The deep sound ignited his body and he answered with a groan, pulling her even further into him as pulled himself upright once more, running his tongue up the front of her body.

Jax pulled away again, wanting to remind Keesha just how much he loved her, but as soon as he stared into her sparkling eyes, all his thoughts failed. She pushed her hair back as her gaze moved to his mouth, and this time she bent.

Keesha placed a small kiss upon his top lip, and Jax closed his eyes. His mouth parted slightly and she kissed the bottom one, ending with a gentle suck. She wrapped her arms around his waist, kissing him fully once more.

Keesha trailed her fingers around his waist, her hands moving up his torso. They landed softly against his chest and through his shirt she traced the muscles slowly. Her thumbs brushed across his nipples and Jax groaned her name.

As they kissed, Keesha unfastened the buttons of his shirt. She broke their embrace, pulling away. Jax wondered why she had stopped and opened his eyes, looking down at her. She stared at her hands, amazed...her fingers were actually shaking...

Keesha blinked as Jax took her hands in his, leading them to his lips. She looked up into his eyes, and he maintained contact as he kissed her hands softly.

"Okay?" he asked, his voice deep. She drew one hand from his, touching his face lightly. Without a word she kissed him again, her hand leaving his face, meeting the other one as she began undoing his shirt once more.

Keesha drew the shirt past his shoulders; it fell into a heap around his waist. Jax closed his eyes once more and she reached down, drawing the bottom of his shirt from his jeans, removing it completely.

Her gaze traveled up, still, after all these years, somewhat in awe at how beautiful Jax was. Keesha stared, amazed at the hardness of his muscles on his lean frame. She placed a small kiss upon his lips, and then drew down, nuzzling against his neck. Slowly he exhaled, the breath quivering slightly. She leaned forward, leading him to recline on his back as she continued kissing his throat. She hovered above him as her tongue ran slowly up the side of his neck, her hands roaming slowly over his body, leaving no spot untouched....they moved lower, undoing his jeans.

The feel of her warm breath against his skin, the softness of her hands against his body...

She pulled his jeans down, laying on top of him, gliding her body over his...

The heavenly feel of her body against his...

He wrapped his hands around her, trailing across her back as she drew up once more, trapping her fingers in his briefs...

The way that her hair curled gently around his fingers...his desire overwhelmed him and he arched against her.

She used the opportunity, drawing the rest of his clothes from his body-leaving him nude.

Jax opened his eyes, smiling warmly when he found her eyes waiting. He drew his fingers slowly from her hair, and then reached up once more, pushing away the falling curls near her eyes. He watched as Keesha closed them, and he leaned up kissing her gently. He wrapped his arms around her, his fingers trailing gently up her spine. She bent forward, returning his kiss as slowly she slid herself down, her body gliding over his as she reclined on top of him. His other hand pushed her hair away from her face again and he kissed her once more.

Jax pulled away, looking at Keesha again. She leaned up, stradling against his waist as she began to remove the rest of her own clothing. He ran his hands up and down her legs, gazing at her while she worked, marvelling at how lovely she was. Soon she was completely undressed, and it was only then that his eyes left hers, travelling slowly across her form. Just looking at her made his body react and his hardness continued to grow.

Keesha leaned over, hovering above Jax once more, kissing him so passionately that when she finally pulled away, they were both breathless. He closed his eyes inhaling sharply as her kisses began trailing down the front of his chest.

Starting on one side, Keesha placed small butterfly kisses his stomach, skipping over his navel and continuing until she reached the same point on his right. Jax ran his fingers through her hair and she sighed; finally she turned her attention to the middle of his stomach, tracing her tongue around his navel, darting it inside, and then sucking on the area so hard that his body shivered and he groaned her name.

Keesha ran her tongue slowly back up the middle of his chest. Jax opened his eyes, looking down at her. She flicked her tongue across his nipple and his eyes shut again with a small moan as she pulled it gently with her teeth. She continued kissing her way up his chest until finally he felt her mouth touch his. Soon her mind reeled as he kissed her with unabashed hunger. He tried to satsify his need with the taste of her mouth, but her kisses would not suffice. He pulled away from her, leaning up slightly as he began kissing her neck.

Keesha closed her eyes, with a quivering sigh. Jax finished by running his tongue across her throat before he opened his mouth, closing it over the side of her neck, giving it a gentle suck. She tilted her head back with a moan and he traced a path with his tongue down the front of her throat, further placing butterfly kisses around the curves of her breasts. He reached up, his fingers running across her stomach as his lips continued their work. He took a breast into his mouth suckling it, and she arched against against him with a moan of his name.

Keesha placed her hand on his leg, slowly moving it upwards. Jax looked into her eyes once more, reclining back down in the bed. She kissed him sweetly and once again he laced his fingers through her hair, holding her close to him, returning her kiss. Her fingers moved to his inner thigh moving up. Finally she touched his hardness, wrapping her hand around him, stroking the length of him. He arched his hips with a groan...realizing he would not be able to take much more. Yet she continuned, enticing him until he actually began to throb against her. She smiled, looking into his eyes and once again he leaned up slightly, kissing her lips. Her hand continued and he had to tear his lips from hers, inhaling sharply.

Without warning Jax rolled them over and Keesha found herself underneath him. He wrapped her leg around his waist, the other moving lightly up her inner thigh...slowly he slid a finger up within the moist wetness of her core, and she closed her eyes, sighing as her fingers clutched against the sheet beaneath her.

Jax kissed Keesha deeply, his tongue meeting and teasing against hers as this time his fingers teased her of more to come, threating to bring her past the point of no return. Her body tightened with such force that she arched suddenly, pulling her mouth from his with a groan.

Once again Jax changed positions as he sat up. Keesha looked at him and took the hand he offered. She sat up as well, shifting to his lap.

Keesha kissed Jax fully as she wrapped her arms around him. He took her legs, leading them around his waist. They kissed again and she lifted herself, guiding herself over him. He held her closely and she began to lower herself - very soon she had enveloped him entirely.

Jax moaned deeply, burying his face against her throat. She felt so absolutely...

"Perfect..." he mumbled.

Her body jumped slightly at it's joyous realization of having Jax inside of her once more. Keesha dug her nails into his shoulders, her breath labored as she fought the instinctive urge to move. She loosened her grip, sweeping her hands down his back and then up once more, resting them on his shoulders again.

Finally Jax answered the call to move and slowly began making love to Keesha. After only a moment, her body she moaned, arching against him. He answered her groan with his own, lifting his head from her neck. She began to match his slow, deliberate motions with her own, and he breathed her name before burying his face against her throat once more.

Jax tightened his hold on Keesha, realizing that he would not be able to hold off much longer...faintly he heard her call his name and they quickened their pace.

Jax thrust within her and Keesha froze-with a moan she gave into her release. With one final surge, he released, his climax so intense his body shuddered...he lifted his head and kissed her tenderly.

Keesha loosened her grip around Jax, pulling her mouth from his-her hands sweeping down his spine as she tried to find her breath. He tilted her face towards his and she looked into his eyes. "I love you." she promised, her eyes tearing in happiness. She closed her eyes as he kissed her tears away, before brushing his lips across hers.

"I love you too." he answered, his own eyes watering as he kissed her.



Reclining on her stomach, Keesha stared at bathroom door, listening to Jax's shower run. She closed her eyes, sighing contently....

"Hello." she answered the ringing phone.

"Hi...."

Keesha slammed the phone down disconnecting the call.

Lark...

Why was Lark calling now. Everything between her and Jax was fine, why was she calling *now*.

The phone rang again and she stared at it. Yet she ignored it. The sound filled the room as it rang over and over again, each time the answering machine picked up-it would stop, only to start again.

Keesha looked at it, yet she refused to answer, she just listened to that incessant ringing...

"You can get it." Jax informed her, running a towel through his hair.

"Don't want it." Keesha whispered, closing her eyes to the ringing.

Jax looked over as the answering machine clicked on. The phone stopped ringing. Only to start again. Jax walked over...

Her eyes snapped open. "Jax, please, leave it." Keesha begged. "It's Lark, just leave it."

Jax looked at Keesha.

"Just leave it." she repeated, closing her eyes again.

Jax bent down, unplugging the phone. He climbed into the bed, straddeling across Keesha's body. Without a word he ran his hands slowly down her back. He bent, whispering slowly. "Can I say something?"

Keesha opened her eyes, listening.

"You don't need to know her, to know you."

Her heart stopped as with that simple sentence, Jax stated exactly what she had been thinking all of these months.

Lark was just one more person who was a part of Keesha's life who she didn't know. She didn't really know her father, she didn't really know Tiffany-and now there was Lark.

And Keesha wondered, even now sometimes, how could she be secure in who she was if she didn't get the chance to know the woman who brought her into the world. A woman who looked just like...

"I wish we didn't look so much alike." Keesha admitted with a whisper.

Jax leaned up, rubbing her back once more. "You don't look like her."

Keesha craned her head, looking at him.

He continued, "Sure, at first glance, yeah, you look alike. But your eyes always give you away...you are someone completely different. In them anyone can see that you have two completely different souls-and yours does not henge upon hers. You are completely different...Keesha, you are different from anyone I have ever known, and that's why I'm so in love with you."

Keesha took a deep breath, looking ahead again. Jax sighed quietly, his mind racing with ways to get rid of Lark once and for all. He was tired of seeing Keesha in pain because of her...

"I'm going to try dinner again." Jax bent forward, placing a small kiss on her back. He stood.

"Jax?"

Jax turned, looking back at Keesha's quiet whisper.

"Thank you."

"For what?" he smiled. "I only told the truth."

"For understanding. You always understand me...thank you for reminding me of that."

Keesha smiled as Jax winked at her. Then her grin faded. "I love you." she mouthed, blowing him a kiss.

Jax watched as Keesha closed her eyes again. He leaned up against the doorway, and soon he could tell, just by looking at her.

She had fallen asleep.