Rewind

 
Rewind tape,
Pressing play,
It isn't all the same.
Brush my tears,
Clenching fists,
Burning pain,
Reach for the remote again.
Off my face,
Lips quiver once more,
Heart pounds,
Breath shortens,
Eyes are growing sore.
Listened carefully,
To the words,
The meaning is so strange,
So different,
While no change,
I have no way to defend.
A strength weakened,
A head numb,
A deaf inside of me,
A turning stomach,
A sniffling nose,
A hand too tired to reach.
Struck a tender nerve,
Opened a broken heart,
The emotions over-flow,
Pleased the ears,
Pierced a feeling,
And still I long for more.
The pain, the hurt,
The joy, the pride,
All swirl around,
The smiles, the laughter,
The tears, the crying, 
All together are found.
Tape moves,
Backwards and forwards,
On my each command,
My life and feelings,
Your words and ways,
Cannot be touched by my hands.
Chest tightens,
Grasp the remote,
Turning my knuckles white,
Moistens eyes,
Forms a lump,
When you become the sight.
My deepest feelings,
You put into words,
I finally have realized;
My heart and soul,
You sang outloud,
A force I cannot fight.
Didn't click,
Didn't matter,
Until I watched today,
Didn't feel,
Didn't understand,
The actual words you say.
Now I know,
Now I feel,
What you really sing,
Now I like,
Now I need,
The feelings this song brings.
The ideas,
The thoughts,
I express may be wrong,
Your ideas,
Your thoughts,
And mine mightn't get along.
Doesn't matter,
I don't care,
It still made me hurt,
Reach for the remote,
Rewind again,
This lesson I must learn.