If Only

 
If only you knew. . . 

Sometimes I wonder,
How I can carry on each day,
Sometimes I think at night,
Why it's got to be this way,
Sometimes I think of you,
And then I think of me,
I always think about,
The way it'll never be.

If only you knew how much you mean to me,
If only you knew the love that you just cannot see,
If only you knew how much I try,
To hide and protect myself with never-ending lies.

I sit and look in your eyes,
Knowing you don't see me,
And then I ask myself,
Why this has got to be.
Just want a little tiny,
Fraction of your time,
But I know in my heart that, 
You will never be mine.

If only you could hear the words I have to say,
If only you could understand why my heart beats this way,
If only I could reach out and open up your mind,
Maybe then you'd understand exactly why.
And maybe then you can tell me,
Why this has got to be.

Lost and confused,
Don't know just what to do,
You've got my mind spinnin',
Burning inferno inside,
No longer wanna cry,
Just please try to understand.

If only you knew how much you mean to me,
If only you knew the love that you just cannot see,
If only you knew how much I try,
To walk away from all the lies.
If only you knew the little bit I ask,
Just one minute of you time to help me satisfy,
If only you knew just the few words I have to say,
And maybe then you'll know why I am still this way.
If only you could hear me speak,
If only you could come to me,
If only you knew,
Just how much I am so afraid of you.

Give me just one minute,
To see you look at me,
Give me just one minute,
And then I swear that I will leave,
Give me just one minute,
Just a portion of your time,
Give me just one minute,
And then you'll know my mind.

If only you knew the way I think of you,
Wanting so much and little,
Not knowing what to do.
If only you knew the way I don't want it this way,
Loving and hating you,
The words I cannot say.

If only you knew,
How much just one minute would mean to me,
If only you knew,
The love that you just cannot see,
If only you knew,
The smiles I wanna show,
If only you knew,
The way that my love goes.

If only I had just sixty seconds,
If only I had just a simple little reason,
If only I could stop my heart from beating this way,
If only you could hear what I say. . . 

If only you knew.