Chapter 36
"Ok Tay..you can do it..feel the power and go for it..walk past..say 'Hi' leave. You don't have to talk to her no matter how much you want to...",Tay told himself as he entered the family room and saw Krissa sprawled out on the couch staring into oblivion. "Hey Tay!",Krissa said with excitement as she started at the tall blonde who entered the room. She felt her heart skip a beat as she looked up into his sky blue eyes. "Um..Hey Krissa.",Tay said with a short sweet smile as he clutched a piece of paper in his right hand. "Well, don't just stand there like a squirrel..come sit down.. take me at least partially out of the boredom I'm experiencing.",Krissa asked as she moved her leg and patted on the couch seat. Taylor put the paper next to him as he sat on the couch. He felt the heat of his body radiating from him, just being near to Krissa, he hoped she couldn't sense his warmth. "So, what have you been up to?",Tay asked her as his leg and foot patted the floor. "Well..the usual..sitting with a cast wishing my freakin' leg would heal.",Krissa said hoping to get a smile out of him. "Yea.. well I have to go meet some people at the music store, to get music sheets.. because certain siblings used crayons and colored the lines like rainbows and such. So I'll talk to you later..Bye.",Tay said as he headed out the door. Krissa mumbled, "Ohhhhkay..", and looked down to see that Tay left his folded sheet of paper. "Ahh Tay.. eek..he's gone.. I wish I didn't have this stupid cast!!! Then I could..hop? over and give it to him?! DANGIT!!",Krissa exclaimed as she hit her cast w/ her hand then cried out in pain and shook her hand crying, "Ouch!! Ouch!!..". Krissa picked up the paper and decided between reading it or not. Despite her better judgement she started reading it..
~I stand in the shadows as others gather around you~
~Your aura gleams outward and touches a cold world~
~A world that I am trapped in now~
~If only I could break off a piece of your ray of light~
~Then maybe I'd know happiness forever~
~I've caused myself much pain~
~I've caused you even more~
~Tears streak my cheeks~
~I taste the saltiness on my lips~
~I wish I instead tasted your sunshine~
~Maybe that'd give me hope~
~But all I feel is grief~
~In my own way I have love for you~
~And I cry for the pain I've caused you~
~I'm truly....
The rest of the poem was scratched out and erased. Tears were built up in Krissa's eyes as they poured onto the paper and smeared some of the writing that was done in ink. That was when she realized, she really had feelings for Taylor. She tried to hide them, conceal them with hate, conceal them with smiles, conceal them with everything never showing them. Krissa silently cried and said to herself,"Oh god Taylor.. I'm just so afraid..afraid..afraid of caring for you..like I did Justin.."
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