so here it is... today, and everything is looking all fuzzy cuz the rain won't stop... artist, that's what i am now... but i can't stop striking my hands at what i should become without cutting myself on the self-doubt. pretty picture. right. it's hard to be semi-talented in a world where everyone is so fucking gorgeous. shame, really. new love interest making life interesting. it's a difficult task metering yourself out between friends and lover, dividing days into acceptable segments, but i'm trying. i'm finding the beauty in showing my scars, so i guess it's worth all this effort. i was never one for trying, well at least lately i'm not, but this one has found a way to keep me snug and tantalized in my skin...you know how it is when you can't stop thinking about someone, when their face is imprinted on your brain and you just want to gag on all the pretty thoughts you have of them... yeah, that's how i've got it... it's great :) that's just about it.
