here's some interesting conversations i've had on im lately... mmm voyeurism!

mentalJoga: i think we're just de-stressing on each other... which causes more stress... vicious cycle3

Danimalicious: well, what you ahve to do is just stop for a minute, and accept that your life is crappy right now

Danimalicious: but that will change

Danimalicious: provided you want it to, and work to

make it better

Danimalicious: i don't know if that makes nay sense

mentalJoga: yes it does

Danimalicious: but otherwise, problem solved!

Danimalicious: =)

mentalJoga: see, my thing is that life isn't soo bad

mentalJoga: i think i've just been liking my self pity

Danimalicious: no, see, there you go - you're feeling guilty for feeling bad

Danimalicious: bad brooke! ^_^

Danimalicious: i mean, yes, if my dad jsut died, I would have "more" reason to feel bad/down than if someone forgot to but the milk

Danimalicious: but that second person still feels bad about it, and has every right to keep feeling bad

mentalJoga: yeah i have the right to feel bad

Danimalicious: certainly we all do, and we all will feel bad at some point in our lives

Danimalicious: it's how you decide to go on from that realization that's important

mentalJoga: whether you wallow in it or just die?

mentalJoga: or get up and be a superhero

Danimalicious: or something in between, yes

Danimalicious: =

Danimalicious: )

Danimalicious: i don't believe that our mind can be so autonomous, in that there are things that can't be helped

Danimalicious: I don't necessarily believe in ADD, for example mentalJoga: really

Danimalicious: i think, and perhaps this is easy for me to say, that if you really want to pay attention, then pay attention

Danimalicious: i think that the mind can overcome a chemical imbalance

Danimalicious: i have no proof of this, but I just have to think that our mind is capable of something like that

mentalJoga: um... speaking from someone who has tried

mentalJoga: it's not very easy at all... as a matter of fact... the mind suffers when you battle the chemical

Danimalicious: but, how much is it that people tell you, you have ADD, so it's expected taht you won't make it past that

mentalJoga: well i've never been told i have it, it runs in my family... but i grew up being told i was lazy

Danimalicious: and at the same time, having taken acid, I know that there is a very real effect chemical's have on the brain

mentalJoga: no matter how hard i would concentrate... zoom in, zone out... , it wouldn't be good enough and i'd just end up feeling useles

mentalJoga: and my body gets stressed out

Danimalicious: and you just can't function/

mentalJoga: see, people should learn that yes, the chemical is one aspect... but you have to focus on the mind as well

mentalJoga: i've learned ways to trick myself into paying attention

Danimalicious: how so?

mentalJoga: well... i have to find "threads" in whatever i'm learning

mentalJoga: ways to tie it in to my brain, ways that it's logical for me to learn it... utilitarian

Danimalicious: and it works?

Danimalicious: not that it shouldn't

Danimalicious: I mena

mentalJoga: such as... a professor will go "the sun is blah blah blah astronomical units from the earth*...

mentalJoga: and normally my mind would zone out... but instead i have to go... well this is cool to learn because a) it makes me realize how insignificant everything is b) it's neat to envision the spacial difference, the likes of which i could never imagine... stuff like that mentalJoga: that way i pay attention... i feel like i can get something out of it

Danimalicious: i wish I could do that for my American history class, but no matter

Danimalicious: and see, I don't know if that's different than anyone else

Danimalicious: there are times when I'm like, I jsut need to know this to know this

Danimalicious: though, I guess it's different w/ what you said

Danimalicious: since you make it so that you actually want to know it...

mentalJoga: well that's what i have to do, or else i completely phase out

mentalJoga: i starting worrying about one thing... then i'm off in lala land and it's all over

Danimalicious: and here, your mind, the part that isn't physical (and I think our humanity relies on a non-physical or tangible quality) is triumphing over any chemical issues

mentalJoga: so i know that it is possible... but not always... and that's the problem

mentalJoga: i see people in class that can just pay attention and i get jealous

mentalJoga: because i'm off thinking about colors and spaceghost and i just can't pay attention

Danimalicious: but what if they're doing the same thing?

Danimalicious: and have only managed to perfect that look of paying attention?

mentalJoga: probably

end of that thought

mentalJoga: hey dan... could i ask you something

Danimalicious: yes

Danimalicious: was that the question?

Danimalicious: hah!

mentalJoga: could i post this weird conversation online... i'm trying to chronicle my life latlely for the kids back home

Danimalicious: sure

mentalJoga: don't worry i'll edit the part about your mom and the goat

Danimalicious: can I talk about how I've had lots of sex?

Danimalicious: oh, well then

mentalJoga: sure

Danimalicious: hell, keep it in

Danimalicious: i've got little to hide ;-)

mentalJoga: i've heard that the ladies flock to you like deer on saltlick

Danimalicious: i wish

Danimalicious: and really, I wish they were lickin' me like a salt lick

Danimalicious: but my lack of booty isn't the point

oh, and speaking of that

mentalJoga: yesss...

Danimalicious: my roommate may be here for spring break

mentalJoga: wow... does that mean i can hit that?

Danimalicious: which means you guys couldn't use his bed he's gay

Danimalicious: and currently dating a friend of mine

Danimalicious: but anywya, b/c I'm such a cool guy, you guys would be more than welcome to take my bed and I would take my couch

Danimalicious: but that would mean NO DOIN' IT IN

DAN'S BED!!

Danimalicious: EVER

mentalJoga: of course dan

mentalJoga: tim and i would NEVER do anything like that on your bed

mentalJoga: you're our friend...

mentalJoga: *wicked look...rubs hands together*... promise

mentalJoga: muahhaha

Danimalicious: Mike was housesitting for me and my mom once

Danimalicious: and he Jessica did it in our guest room

mentalJoga: damn geena!

Danimalicious: which, all things being considered, isn't that bad

Danimalicious: but still, it's bad enough dmanit

mentalJoga: i've had people do it in my bed...

mentalJoga: wait..

mentalJoga: no i haven't

mentalJoga: woohoo