My Heart Stays With You

Howie whistled as he stepped out of the limo. "Oh, hold on," he said turning to grab the bouquet of flowers. "I'll call you later if I need a ride home tonight," he told the driver grinning.

"Yes Sir," the driver replied, closed the door and shook his head as he watched Howie walk into the building. He had been very busy with Howie for the last few months. More so than ever before, constantly dropping him off at Tyler's house, or picking her and bringing her to meet him. He wondered how Howie had managed so many women over the years. But at least for the last few months he had only been seeing this one woman.

Howie checked his pants, shoes and straightened his shirt as the elevator headed for the 10th floor. He was on his way to see Tyler. They had been seeing each other on and off for almost a year. But lately he had been seeing her exclusively. They had grown very close, visiting each other two to three times a week, especially since his schedule was going to be getting very hectic when the new tour began.

He was crazy about her. He had met her at a club one night. All the guys had gone out to one of his favorite clubs and that was where Tyler caught his eye. She was a beautiful girl, she stood about 5' 8", with long brown hair. She had the prettiest green eyes he had ever seen. He would often just stare into them causing her to blush. He loved the way she reacted to him, the way she felt in his arms. And now he was on his way to her apartment to spend the evening with her once more.

Howie grinned as Tyler opened the door. She was wearing a short black skirt and gold silk blouse. She had her hair pinned up with a few loose curls hanging down. She looked more beautiful than he had ever remembered.

"Hi sweetie," he said.

"Hi," she said as she motioned for him to come in. He pulled her close, kissing her tenderly. He loved the way her body felt next to his.

"Beautiful flowers for my beautiful lady," he told her as he handed her the bouquet and kissed her on the cheek.

"Thanks," she said rather sharply. Howie shook his head as he walked into the apartment and followed her into the kitchen. It was obvious something was bothering her.

"What's wrong?" he asked as he watched her place the flowers in the vase and turn to look at him.

"I need to talk to you," she said in a strange tone of voice.

"What is it? What's wrong?" he asked as he wrapped his strong arms around her waist and pulled her close.

She looked into his big brown eyes and pulled herself away from his grip. He was wearing her favorite black pants and grey shirt, his hair was braided just the way she liked it. He looked so good. So sexy. This wasn't fair. She knew this was going to be hard to do, but she had to do it. How was she ever going to tell him that she was leaving? She didn't know how she would ever be able to handle it herself.

Looking into his eyes she felt tears begin to well up inside. Her stomach was in knots but she knew she had to do this. Howie sat there gazing at her, the tears in her eyes worrying him. ‘What is it? Tell me baby, please."

She sat down in the chair next to him. Tears were freely falling down her cheeks. "I'm leaving," she said sobbing.

He felt his heart drop. "What do you mean you're leaving? Where are you going?" he asked as he leaned over towards her.

"I'm leaving. I'm moving to California, permanently."

He gulped, he felt his heart drop. He couldn't believe what she was saying. "Why? When?"

Tyler stood up and poured herself a glass of water. She took a sip and sat the glass on the table. "I can't stay here anymore. I have a job offer in LA and ...." she hesitated.

"A job? But baby, you have a job here," he said worried.

"That's not all. I found out about you Howie," she said looking into his tear filled eyes and feeling as if her heart would break. "I found out about you and Jenna. I know you were seeing her all summer long," she said as she started to cry again. "I can't do this. I can't be with you."

Howie's heart began to race. "Baby, I'm not seeing her. I'm not seeing anyone but you," he said as tears formed in his eyes. He gazed into her eyes, feeling so bad, seeing the hurt he had caused. He couldn't stand to see her in pain. And he knew he couldn't live without her.

"Tyler," he said as he gently took her hand in his, kissing the back of it softly. "I love you. Only you. I used to date a lot. You knew that. But I haven't been seeing anyone else for months. It's only been you baby, You're all I've ever dreamed of, all I'll ever need."

She turned away slowly, her heart breaking as she did. "I don't want to argue with you. I've made my decision. Please don't make this any harder," she pleaded pulling her hand away from his. < Oh GOD > she thought, < How can I do this? I love him so much. >

"I'm sorry. I think you should go," she said feeling like her heart would break in two if she had to look into his sad eyes again.

"But baby," he pleaded. Looking at her he could see she was very upset. "Tyler, I don't want to lose you baby. I love you. Can't we talk about this?"

She just put her head in her hands and sobbed softly. "I don't want to talk about it now."

Howie picked up his keys and leaned over to her, gently kissing her on her soft cheek. He had tears in his eyes and felt as if someone had punched him in the stomach. "Baby, I can't lose you. Not like this. Will you please call me tomorrow so we can talk?"

She just nodded. "I will call tomorrow."

As he closed the door behind him he realized he didn't have a ride home. He hadn't driven himself there and hadn't called the driver. But he didn't care. He didn't know where he was going. He just started walking aimlessly, trying to figure out how he could have been so blind. He loved her more than anything. He had begun to realize that a few months back. And now that he was close to losing her, he could kick himself for waiting so long to tell her just how much she meant to him.

He walked and walked, soon realizing he didn't recognize where he was. He had been walking for hours. After seeing a phone across the road he decided he had better call someone for a ride.

AJ could tell Howie was in bad shape. He sounded like he was crying. As he pulled up to the street corner he saw him sitting on the curb with his head down. AJ parked, opened his door and walked over to him. "D? What's wrong? How did you end up here?" he asked looking around and wanting to get out of that neighborhood.

After a few seconds Howie looked up. His eyes were red from crying and he looked devastated. "I'm sorry J. I just didn't know where to go."

AJ reached down, patting his friend on the shoulder. "Come on, let's get in the car. I really don't feel safe in this neighborhood."

Howie slowly got up and followed him to the car. As AJ drove off he looked over at him. "What's wrong? What happened?"

"I don't know what I'm going to do. Tyler is leaving," he said between sobs. "She's moving to LA and she won't talk to me about it. I can't lose her now. I just can't."

He spent the night at AJ's house. They talked all night long. Probably more than they had ever talked before. By morning Howie knew what he was going to do. And it wasn't going to include losing Tyler. He spent the entire next day finding out where she would be, and where she would be moving to. He was determined to find a way to prove his love for her.

Tyler spent 4 days in LA looking for a new house. But every time she turned around she had a call from Howie or a message had been left for her telling her he loved her and missed her. She hadn't had much luck. One night when she walked into her hotel suite she was shocked to find the entire suite full of dozens of red roses. He had even sent gifts to her. Her favorite perfume, a gold bracelet, and a plane ticket back home.

She missed him terribly. She longed to kiss him and spend the night in his loving arms. But she was afraid. Afraid of being hurt by him again. She loved him too much to risk losing him. She had always heard it was better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all. But she didn't think her heart could stand to lose him again. And with all of the screaming fans chasing him and the other guys she wasn't sure she was willing to take that chance.

As her plane touched down she thought about how she would have to find a new place in LA. The thought of it saddened her even more. This had always been home. It was where she belonged. The ride home seemed to take forever, but she was glad to finally be home.

As she opened the door she saw piles of mail on the floor. It looked like she had at least twenty letters from Howie alone. Scooping them up, she closed the door and headed for the kitchen. Stopping at the answering machine, she saw her whole tape had been filled up with messages. She turned it on and made a drink before kicking her shoes off and sitting down to read the letters. She heard Howie's voice asking her to call him.

After opening the first letter she heard him leave message after message. Each time his voice sounding sadder and more desperate. Tyler felt so bad. Her heart, body and soul ached for him. Tears welled up as she read the last letter:

Dear Tyler,

I've missed you more than words could ever say. You are the center of my universe. The love of my life. I dream of growing old with you. Of never spending a day without you.

My heart truly feels like it has broken. But even as I feel such pain, I want you to know that I love you enough to wait for you. I will never stop waiting for you. Waiting for that one day when you return my call, answer my letter or knock on my door.

If I only knew what to say to make it better I would. My darling, as you lay your head on your pillow tonight, please think of me and know that my heart stays with you.

Love Always,

Howie

Tyler curled up on the bed, tears pouring out of her. The empty feeling inside consuming her. She missed him so much. She knew deep within that she loved this man more than life itself. Minutes later she drifted off to sleep, curled up with her pillows and Howie's letters.

He stood over, her looking down at her tiny body curled up. He gently sat down on the bed next to her and kissed her cheek as his strong loving hands swept the loose strands of hair out of her beautiful face. Lying in this dream like state she heard him singing softly:

Girl I miss you and it's only been one day since you've been away. And already I say I long to kiss you and hold you in my arms. The nights are much too long when you're gone. Baby, that's why wherever I go, girl my heart stays with you after every show I want to rush over to you, my heart stays with you.

Trust me when we are apart I won't break your heart. Wherever you are, I know you feel me. Baby, but I can feel you too no matter what you do, I think of you Girl my heart stays with you.

She felt his warm sexy lips on hers, gently, softly, passionately kissing her. His arms around her caressing her lovingly. This man was so incredibly sexy. He was the only man she would ever need. She eagerly returned his kisses. They felt so real, so intense, she could feel herself wanting him more than ever.

As she slowly opened her eyes, struggling to focus, she realized it hadn't been a dream. He was there holding her, kissing her. "Howie, I missed you......."

"Shhhh, let me show you how much I love you," he whispered as he lovingly kissed her cheeks. His soft kisses nibbling on her lips. Tyler moaned softly and wrapped her arms around his neck as the passion in his kisses spread to her chin, the base of her neck and then to her breasts. She felt her blouse slowly being removed as his warm lips captured her nipples. Her body arched up, encouraging him, wanting all he had to give.

He removed his clothes as quickly as he could and moved over her, lying on her. His body felt so incredibly good. Tyler's hands slid over his strong muscular chest. She loved his body. He was so sexy. His skin felt so good against hers. There was no better place to be than in his arms.

She moaned softly as she felt his strong hands start sliding up her legs. He kissed and nibbled his way up the inside of her legs, tickling her thighs and sighing as he finally reached her wet desire for him. She squirmed as she felt his warm breath on her, and then his mouth. Squealing with delight as he parted her pink lips and gently slid his warm tongue inside of her. He could feel her excitement, her breathing became erratic as he continued to pleasure her, loving the way she reacted to his touch..

Tyler moaned and reached down, holding onto his head as she felt him moving against her faster. Nibbling at her, sucking on her, driving her crazy with desire for him. She loved this man more than ever and loved the way he knew just what she need, just what to do, and just how to do it.

Howie could feel her velvety walls tensing up and pulsating as he continued to suck on her. Her fingers dug into his skin. "Yes, Howie, Yes," she screamed out in pleasure as waves of sweet ecstasy rocked her body. He continued to pleasure her, wanting her to feel the most incredible release she had ever felt. Tyler pulled at his arms trying to bring him up to her. "Howie,"

"Yes baby?"

"That felt so incredible,"

"I know baby," he said as he kissed his way up the flat of her belly. "And you taste so good. I could taste you forever," he said smiling and looking into her beautiful eyes. He had never seen her more radiant. Tyler sighed as his strong, loving arms slid around her, cradling her head as he kissed her.

She loved his soft sexy kisses. Her hands ran over his back again, feeling his magnificent body. She began to move her hands down over his firm ass and felt his hot, hard desire pressing into her.

"Mmmmmm, love me Howie. Show me how much you love me," she whispered.

Howie wasted no time as he parted her legs with his and pressed himself into her wetness, slowly, filling her completely. Tyler moaned, her back arched. Nothing compared to the feeling of having him inside of her. She felt his hot shaft moving inside of her, slowly at first and then faster. As she began to thrust her hips up to meet his, he moved faster and faster. "Yes, Howie, that feels so good," she said panting and moving in time with him. "Faster, please, yes, love me," she screamed out.

Howie smiled, he couldn't deny her, pulling out almost completely and ramming back into her harder and faster, again and again. Together they moved as one, both of them breathless, holding on to each other. He could feel her walls tightening around him, his fingers gently massaged her throbbing clit, she moaned loudly, he thrust into her harder and harder. Her walls began trembling, he pulsated, together they moved as waves of ecstasy consumed them both. Both of them breathless and smiling, loving the look of complete, undeniable love they saw in each others eyes. Tyler holding him close with no intention of ever letting him go again. Howie loving the feeling of making love to the woman he loved more than anything.

"Baby, I love you," he whispered burying his head in her neck. "I love you."

"I know Howie, I love you too. Please forgive me. Please stay with me."

Howie looked into her loving eyes and smiled, tears of joy slid down his cheek. "I'll never leave you baby. My heart will always stay with you."

THE END