under the eclipse, part I


listen
to that subtle echo
of church bells
glistening with the sweat
that collects in pools
by the altar
where
i fall to my knees
praying
for the morning sun to	
let me be

marry me my lover
to bury me forever
in earth and stone

a faded book of psalms

i can only imagine
the atrocity
that cast me into what i’ve become
a scathing metamorphosis
like demons in a circus
the cavalcade of doom i dread

marry me my lover
show me that i’m wanted
as you clench a cool steel fist
had it ever occurred to you that
it took	
thousands
upon
the
shoulders of
one
to make
eternity
infinite?

fuck me and i’ll wallow in your filth
the anonymity
of sweet death sings
through your pursed lips
a kiss
oh yes	
a kiss i must give
before the prince may morph
from swine to
inhuman	

read a little deeper into this
and say it’s not the truth
look into my eyes and tell me you

understand
it’s
my fury
staring
into the
sun
and going
blind
again

give me your hand
you little bastard
bitch
now i feel a pulse
summoning my nerve to twinge
my wings of wax
take shape again
a flight of exodus
a vengeance
foaming at the mouth
for a rabid blood
flows thru my veins
consequent of habit
to save the earth i laid to waste
higher
closer
warmer in the sunshine
an amber rain washes o’er the plains
another fool martyr

a kiss?
why yes
but -
my lips, consumed in fire
so desolate without your touch
lit up like a candlefly
scorched by desire
	woe to the sufferer of
	a flesh singed by flame!
liquefying to the bone
a wax conscience,
lax in love
a wax vomit,
black of soul
	
the threads that once gave impetus
now yield to the almighty weight
of home
	
“see here
my chosen one, in your heart
lies the center of the universe
of my beloved”




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