brutal


can’t you help me make amends
and cast this love unto its end
as if it were all inside my head?
nevertheless
i’ve made it all so meaningless
staid and drugged with wonderment
and all i really need is home
all i really need is reason
to be alone
with someone who’d dare swallow death
and linger here in my last breath
someone who’d prove to me
perfection isn’t real
and that i really feel the same
as if my feelings felt to heal
but i can’t make it any easier
to flush away the hurt
i can’t make it any easier
to single out my voice
among the brutal marrow noise
it’s screaming arrows
streaming tears
and whispering fears
of being real
for i dare never sin the dream
i only wish i’d spur the seams
to stitch these gaping holes of need
forever closed
for ever bleed the ember soul
and burn in speed
why born in you
is dead in me




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