the floodgates


open wide
to drown
my screams
under
a ceaseless
flow of
god and
love and
everything
i wish
to avoid
everything
i suffer
for
the dams
burst
wide open
and let
me feel
that which
i recognize
that
which i
can no
longer believe
in
that
which nothing
short of
death can
prove
my eyes
search in
the blur
i behold
the colorful
whir
that waters
down my
purity
there was
once a
time
where all
i wanted
was love
was god
was everything
that mattered
but after
this it
will be
certain once
and for
all that
nothing about
life can
stop me
from wanting
death
to paint
me in
its beautiful
black hole
under rainbows
and fields
of coal
ablaze with
the living
end i
always
dreamed it
would have
been
at least
meaningful
if nothing
else.




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