Jeesh.
Holy cow I got drunk last night.
So much for not getting shitty for an extended period of time.
Ugh - I'm so hung over. I just drank a red bull, and it helped a little bit. Although I am seriously becoming a subsciber to my joke theory of alcohol cleansing your system. I feel better cough-wise this morning in comparison to what I had been at before last night.
All because of large quantities of alcohol, red bull, and nyquil last night. Jeesh. Talk about a mess. I drunk dialed John last night. And I don't remember it.
But, on another note. I talked to Justin yesterday. He wants to see me again. What? I haven't heard from him in like, a week and a half. At ALL. I emailed him. I called him twice. I left VMs. Supposedly he tried to get a hold of me as well. And supposedly never received any of those messages. When we were both online, he'd talk to me for thirty seconds and sign off.
I don't know whatever. The problem comes in where I have to tell him WHY I don't want to hang out with him again. Not the - I'm sick - excuse, either. The whole truth and nothing but the truth. Elise made a comment which kind of strikes me as scarily weird.
It's like the universe was working against Justin and I and for John and I.
And normally I'd have blown it off as nonsense. But the fact is - Justin didn't get my email, which I save my sent messages, and I had the correct email address, I forwarded it to him yesterday. He said that he never got any of my VMs. He said that he called, and either couldn't get through, or always called when we weren't here. Either way, his phone number never came up on the caller ID. I don't know past that. I definitely think that it was weird. He's coming to Somersworth to visit a friend of his on Wednesday. I think that that may be the day that I have to confront this issue. I don't particularly care if he was blowing me off. 'Cause it worked very well for me. I just have to figure out how I'm going to tell him this. He said that it's only been like a week and a half since he last talked to me, which is bullshit, it's been much longer than that. I've been with John for a week already. And I hadn't heard from Justin for like a week and a half before that, so I guess that when I said that it's been like three weeks to Justin it really had been three weeks. Actually, I'm a dumbass, I can just go on to my blog and figure it out.
Ok, so I posted that on the first blog before I deleted it. I do vaguely remember talking to him the day that my brother came home, so I guess that it has only been like two weeks since I last talked to him. And he did come over to drop off my wallet on 7/31, the first entry in the new blog. Whoops. Ah well. I was kind of a bitch to him on the phone, but you know, he deserves it.
Ok, so five days after the last time that I saw him I guess that I was making out with another guy. I guess that sort of makes me a bitch... ? Whatever. I'm flighty, and totally ADD, if you can't keep my attention, I will go elsewhere. And apparently he can't, so I don't know why I suddenly feel like the bad guy. I do vaguely remember feeling badly about it afterwards, and Elise telling me to shut the fuck up, so I must have already been pissed off about the situation at that point in time. Haha.
Yeah. I'm not worried about it. I'm just wishing that the situation would fix itself.