Poison and Butterflies 7.21.03 Exuberent Dreams 7.18.03
Can you remember the beautiful day when you took me in your arms and we danced and the nudity of our hearts were so free, like a butterfly...? Our hearts were screaming each others names passionatly as we ignored the hateful world around us. Do you remember? We gave our hearts away so fast, but the butterflies became more and more beautiful everyday. Poisened hearts will never change, and you were my poison. Everyday I was injected of you and I became addicted. But now I'm coming down and I don't think I can go another day. The stars are falling, your falling, the butterflies are ugly and dieing, and I'm almost broken. If you take two more steps away then its official. Do you remember that beautiful day? I hope you do, because its all that can save me.
These exuberent dreams of something I could never be I have sunk into and almost drowned. These mysteries of you make me so dizzy and dazed I'm spinning in circles and about to faint. As I consume this lonliness a yellow tulip blooms, but it too, is dieing of thirst. My thirst is for you. But sadly, I'm forbidden to quench it. So I swim to the top of these exuberent dreams, scream in extacy, and drop my head.
Barbie's Freedom 7.16.03
Its never her choice
Its always yours
feed her lines
undress her soul
sell her heart out for free
whatever occupies your time.
Forced to pretend
while she hides her tears
anarchy
she whispers.
pass the knife.
The dog must have gotten to it
you think as you scream for your mother
to purchase a new one.
