I Miss You

By Luna

I wrote this the night Alice's ashes arrived. I was totally losing it and in the end was rescued by one of our seven cats. Cat kisses do wonders.

I have never felt pain so deep
The endless whys
Lack of fairness
The soul retching loneliness
That no one knows but me
The flow of tears
The ebb of my heart breaking
The disbelief
Denial of acceptance
All that is left is ash
..and a sweet cat
coming to kiss away my tears
for a smile.

Anastasia

By Luna

April 22, 2003

Some say she's just a cat.
I know better.
Alice told Anastasia
to take good care of me.

She's a tiny furry angel
With a task.
To be here for me
And purr away my tears.

When I cry
She comes.
Touches my face with her nose
...her paw
...looking into my eyes.
Seeing herself and her task
Reflected in my tears.

She tells me it's okay
I'm here.
I will wipe away
your tears.
I will make you smile.

As she gently
Licks my face
Then lays next to my pillow
Purring me to sleep.

Thank you Anastasia.
Thank you Alice.

Reflections

By Luna

April 22, 2003
This was written in a dream.

Reflections of her life
Reflected in my eyes.
My life long friend...
Reflections that will never end

Countless memories
Play in my head.
My greatest treasures...
...her smile
...her voice
...her spirit.
Reflected in me forever.

My friend for life.
Mirrored in the afterglow
Of her life.

A Smile

By Luna

April 22, 2003

I was cheated by death
when she died.
Death is never fair
to the living.
As I sit
alone…
remembering
her life…
our lives.
I realize
With a smile.
In her memory
I never left.