Why is music so important these days? I mean yeah, it's great, and always has been....but it's not like it's gotten any more soulful, or the lyrics any better, no matter what anyone says. I mean when you're getting to know someone one of the first things you ask them is "what kind of music are you into?". It's hard to step outside of the world in which MUSIC is everything and think like this, but if you think about it, it's a little pathetic that our music defines who we are, I even buy into it.. I'm really sick of it.

"Watching the lights go down, letting the cables sleep." Subcultures are stupid. I'm tired of feeling like people think I'm a poser...what would I be posing as? I buy things I like, and I wear things I buy. I wish I could just always be surrounded by people who make me feel at home, who I can be myself around. They are the people that can make just one week of my life worth living.

I just want to be happy again. I used to be stupid, but I was happy. It's not worth what I have to pay to be mature. I'd rather go back to being that way than progress in this direction at this rate.