Rinse

She took a deep breath and laid her fingers on the keys.  With pain staking precision she began her song.

She’d do anything to sparkle in his eyes
She would suffer she would fight and compromise
She’s been wishing on the starts that shine so bright
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight.

“Hey Taylor”
“What hon?” he answered.
“You know I love you right?”
“Of course, I love you too.”
A warm sense of satisfaction rose, bubbling brightly in her stomach.

She must rinse this all away
She can’t hold him this way
She must rinse this all away
She can’t love him this way

Little things changed at first.  She didn’t even pick up on them.  
His calls were less frequent, but he was busy right?
He made up for it when he could.  Yet somehow she couldn't shake the feeling.
Something was wrong. 

How she’d be soothed how she’d be saved if he could see
She needs to be held in his arms to be free
But everything happens for reasons she will never understand
Don’t you know that the heart of a woman can never be found in the arms of a man?

“Taylor.”
“Yeah?” he asked.  
“Will you stay with me.?”
“Okay” he said simply.  
He didn’t say anything else, but at least she was in his arms again.

She must rinse this all away
She can’t hold anybody this way
She must rinse this all away
She can’t love him

“Where were you?” she asked.
“Out” he said simply.
“Out where?” 
“Just out okay” he spat.  She could smell the alcohol on his breath.
“I was worried” she whispered.  He didn’t hear.

And if she runs away she fears she won’t be followed
What could be worse that leaving something behind
And as the depths of oceans slowly become shallow
Its loneliness she finds
If only he were mine

Everything had changed then.  He wasn’t the same person anymore.
She was scared.  She couldn’t leave now, but sometimes is seemed like there was no other choice.
If only he’d come back to her.

She’d do anything to sparkle in his eyes
She would suffer she would fight and compromise
She’s been wishing on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight

“Taylor?”
“Yeah?” he asked.
“I love you” she said hesitantly.
“Yeah” he said vaguely.
That feeling was gone, she was gone.

She must rinse him
She must rinse him
She can’t rinse him
She can’t rinse him
She can’t she wont she must rinse him
She can’t she wont she must rinse him

“Do you want me to go?” she asked.  He only shrugged.  That was answer enough.

She must rinse this all away
She can’t hold him this way
She must rinse this all away
She can’t love him this way 

She lifted her hands from the keys as the audience erupted in applause.  Absently she wiped the tears she hadn’t known she was crying away from her eyes.  

*Musical Credit: Vanessa Carlton, Rinse*

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