Hanson Is...
Sometimes I wonder why I even have this website. It’s not well advertised, therefore there is little traffic. The people who know my writing the best are my great friends at the WHHMB. They don’t need to come here, I show them most of my writing there. I guess I just like work on my site. I enjoy messing around on the computer, and I enjoy anything that has to do with Hanson of course. I suppose that’s what this is all about. What exactly Hanson is and has been to me.
I’ll never forget the day that probably changed my life in some small, yet wondrous way. It was sometime in July of 1997. I was in the CD store with my best friend Natalie. She came to me asking whether she should buy the Men in Black soundtrack, or the Hanson CD Middle of Nowhere. To which I responded “Duh, Men in Black, aren’t you sick of MMMBop yet?” But like all good best friends she disregarded my advice and bought Middle of Nowhere. Now, although she went against my advice I didn’t hold that against her. Instead I listened to the CD with her, and what do you know, it was a great CD. This started our huge infatuation with Hanson that has last almost 5 years now.
At first Hanson was a huge part of my life. Natalie and I listened to Middle of Nowhere every second we weren’t watching MTV to try to catch the Where’s the Love video. Natalie did a very good job convincing me of how gorgeous Taylor is. It only took a couple weeks, and one particular mouth watering picture to change my mind. Since then I’ve been love struck. Looking at a picture of him makes me happy. I appreciate his inner and outer beauty all the time.
Of course right at the height of my obsession, I entered the 9th grade, and found out it wasn’t cool to like Hanson. Oh well, it didn’t stop me. It did stop me from wearing a sign that said “Hi, I’m a Hanson fan, and you should be one too,” but I could never give up my love for the band that affected me in such a positive way.
I liked to think that I was just right for Taylor, and if by some miracle I could meet him, he would fall deeply in love and we would live happily ever after. Hey, a girl can dream can’t she? I sure did, for many years I carried my torch for Taylor. Other guys came and went. Crushes past me by at school, but at night, when I laid down to bed it was Taylor I dreamed about.
All that changed mid-March of my senior year. Ironically it was shortly after Taylor’s 18th birthday when I saw “him”. Okay, so I knew him before. He attended the local University, and was a making his way through college by hall monitoring at my high school. Of course I had known him before, but that was when I started looking at him in a whole different way. I had a job in the Assistant Principals office, which was how I got to know Kurt so well. So, he maybe doesn’t have the gorgeous blue eyes that Taylor has, but he’s real and he’s an amazing person, and that is what I love about him. So, I’ve let a little thing called lack of courage keep me from telling him how I feel the past, oh, year. (So much for snagging Taylor in minutes.) However, we are still good friends, and I still have hopes for ‘us’ because now it’s him that I dream about, rather than Taylor.
So, I’m getting off the subject. That was just to illustrate that my feelings for Hanson have evolved. Hanson is still my favorite band hands down, and I still have trouble looking at a good picture of Taylor without drooling. However I feel strangely less obsessed. Well, I never felt obsessed in the first place, but now I guess my feelings are more realistic. I still love listening to Hanson music, I love seeing Hanson on TV, I love talking with Hanson fans, I love reading and writing Hanson fanfic…lets face it, I love Hanson. So I guess that doesn’t really explain how anything has changed. But I can feel it myself, deep down inside. I have a feeling most of the non-teenybopper fans know what I’m talking about. It’s not necessarily better, or necessarily worse. It’s just different. But hey, I’ll be the first to admit I still get giddy to check my mail everyday and get my daily Taylor fix from Tay A Day.
So how to bring this to a closure? I hope anyone who read this understands and can relate to how I feel. While I was in the middle of writing this I was reminded of a night about 2 years ago. It was my Dad’s 50th birthday. I had bought him an old Beatles album on CD. As I gave it to him and he got excited about it, I wondered when I turn 50, will I be excited to receive an old Hanson album on whatever technology is around at that time. I hope the answer is yes.
