Poems

You are listening to: "My Heart Will Go On"

~~This page is dedicated to all the angel babies in our family:~~
* Christina Breann Hodgins (Miscarriage at 10 weeks 8/21/00)
* Taylor Leann Allison (Anacecaphly at 5 months gestation 3/23/97)
* Baby Allison (Miscarriage at 6 weeks 10/98)
* Brian Keith Martin (Ectopic pregnancy 1978)

We would also like to thank God for our earth angels:
* Dennis Lynn Hodgins born 1/6/99
* Joseph Scott Hodgins born 2/20/03
* Henry James Hodgins born 1/16/07
* Ciara Lynn Allison born 2/7/98
* Nicholas Andrew Allison born 1/21/02

You're A Special Little Spirit:
"You're a Special Little Spirit," the all great Master said,
As he gently caressed the curly blond hair
of the Little Spirit's Head.
"You need to go to Earth to spend some time, you know,
A place I send most Spirits to be tested, to learn, to grow."
The Little Spirit, in sadness, slowly bowed her head,
And from her eye a tear did steal and down her cheek it shed.
"Don't you fret now little one, I won't let you stay too long,
I'll bring you back to help me here,
You'll hardly know you've been gone.
You're my choicest Little Spirit, you're the apple of my eye."
And he wiped the tear and gently kissed
His Little Spirit good-bye.
"I'm back," the Little Spirit whispered,
as she climbed onto her Master's knee,
And the Master said,
"I told you, you would not be long away from me."
And then, the Lord, He noticed still
another tear welled in her eye.
"Why are you so sad, Little Spirit,
whatever should make you cry?"
"I'm glad I'm back," the Spirit said,
"but Master you must surely know,
When your angel came to get me,
I didn't want to go.
I know you said you needed me
and that I'd be gone the shortest while,
But Lord, couldn't I have had a little longer earthly trial?"
The Master let the Little Spirit slip down from His knee,
He firmly took the little hand and said,"Come walk with me."
The Little Spirit and her Lord walked slowly hand in hand,
As the Master explained Her special part
in the great and marvelous plan.
"Now Lord, I don't mean to argue,
I understand you need me home.
But I left in such a hurry,
I left everyone hurting and so alone.
I didn't let my earthly parents know
how much I loved them so.
I was much too small to tell them,
Lord, how will they ever know?
They feel they've been cheated, and in a way so do I.
Not getting to share any more than we did,
how can I ever tell them why?"
"Little Spirit, I know your heart is heavy
with the message you need to share.
But you need not worry anymore,
I'll watch over your loved ones there.
I'll send them loving comfort as a strong and helping hand.
I'll content and give peace to their aching hearts,
so they will understand.
The Little Spirit looked up at her Master and said
"Thank you for explaining it to me.
And could you please tell them I'm safe and happy
and that someday they'll be here with me."
"Yes," said the Lord with a smile and a nod,
"I'll tell them all that I can."
Then the others came to see the Little Spirit,
as the Lord let go of her hand.
He said, "I'll tell them you're pure, as pure as Heaven's Gold,
That I needed the warmth of your perfect soul
to keep Heaven from getting cold."
~Author Unknown~

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OUR BABY:
An empty space where life once stirred
My eyes were not yet seeing
Where once my heartbeat shared a tone
with a small and fragile being
So scarcely formed yet still a life
A dream, a hope, a promise
Our plans were changed to now include
This new life thrust upon us
Then just as quickly as it came
Our dreams were gone away
The deepest pain I've ever felt
Our baby died today
With footprints left upon our hearts
She gently took her leave
We're left with nothing but regret
And only time to grieve
There was no service to be held
No mourning time required
No songs of longing and despair
No word to be inspired
We're simply told to bare the pain
"It's nature's way" they say
I can't forget our baby moved inside me yesterday
And with each word of sorrow
my teardrops fall like rain
The anger and resentment
are mixed with guilt and pain
I look to heaven for a sign
to help search out a course
Where love can teach acceptance
and eliminate remorse
My body will accept the truth
that now our baby's gone
But in our hearts our Angel
everlastingly lives on!
BY:TERI M. STUCKMANN

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IN MEMORY OF....
You never said I'm leaving
You never said goodbye
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you,
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you didn't go alone
For part of me went with you,
The day God took you home.
~AUTHOR UNKNOWN~

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For The Daddy's
It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong"
No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
And field calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right
And what she's going through
But seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break
And dries her tears and comforts her
But "stays strong" for her sake.
It must be very difficult
To start each day anew
And try to be so very brave ~
He lost his baby too. . .
~AUTHOR UNKNOWN~

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PLEASE DON'T BE SAD:
Mommy please don't be sad,
I miss you so much to.
It's beautiful here,
but I worry alot about you.
I sleep with angels watching me... there is only love up here.
I am never lonely or afraid
because God is so very near.
I walk with Jesus every day,
He is very kind and loving.
Don't worry Mom, He holds my hand
when we cross a golden street.
I never cry or hurt myself,
I see Grandpa every day.
I play and laugh and sing alot
and I hear you when you pray.
Please Mommy, don't be mad at God,
you see He loves me too.
And even though you are not with me,
I am really still with you.
~AUTHOR UNKNOWN~

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WHAT MAKES A MOTHER:
I thought of you all, I closed my eyes
and prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother
and I know I heard him say,
"A Mother has a baby.
This we know is true."
But God can you be a Mother
when your baby's not with you?
"Yes you can!" He replied
with confidence in His voice,
"I give many women babies,
when they leave is not there choice."
"Some I send for a lifetime
and others for a day.
And some I send to fill your womb
but there's no need to stay."
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat
and then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you
what your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile
with other children and say,
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear.
My mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
who has so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quick
My Mommy set me free.
I miss My Mommy oh so much
but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
on her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
and whisper in her ear,
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."
"So you see
my dear sweet one,
your children are OK.
Your babies are here in my home
and this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with me
until your lesson is through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize
that you are a Mother until there time is done
They'll be up here with me one day
and know you're the best one.
WRITTEN WITH LOVE FOR ALL THE MOTHER'S MISSING THEIR BABIES BY JENNIFER WASIK

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A Letter to God:
Dear God,
You sent a child to me
To fill my life with joy,
And only You knew which was best~
A little girl or boy.
Somehow I took for granted
That we would have a lifetime.
And I made so many future plans
For that precious child of mine
Enchanted by that Miracle.
Caught up in each new day.
I guess I didn't hear you Lord,
When You said "This one can't stay."
I trust You Lord, Thy will, not mine
Yet I can't understand
This sudden loss~The emptiness~
I know my child's an angel now
But my heart is aching so.
I'm sorry I wasn't ready Lord
To let my baby go.
There wasn't time for one last hug,
There was no final kiss.
Oh God, It's all those special smiles
That I already miss.
So Lord could you do just one thing
For me especially?
Please hold my angel close to You
And say goodbye for me.
Amen.
~By: Bonnie Walsh~

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FINGERPRINTS:
Your fingerprints are on my heart.
Even though I never held your hand -
you touched me.
Even though I never heard you speak -
you taught me.
You taught me about love.
You taught me about caring.
You taught me about courage.
You taught me about faith.
You taught me about happiness.
You taught me about sorrow.
You brought me closer to my loved ones.
In the time I cared for you,
my how life changed.
Never to be the same again.
Because of you
I know I will somehow be stronger.
Because of you
I know I will be more prepared for life.
All this from tiny fingerprints
that touched my heart.
Because of this
you will live forever in my soul -
never to be forgotten.
I will always love you.
You are my child.
~AUTHOR UNKOWN~

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God Needed An Angel In Heaven:
When Jesus lived upon the earth
so many years ago,
He called the children close to Him
because He loved them so...
And with the tenderness of old,
that same sweet, gentle way
He holds your little loved one close
within His arms today...
And you'll find comfort in your faith
that in His home above
The God of little children
gives your little one His love...
So think of your little darling
lighthearted and happy and free
Playing in God's promised land
where there is joy eternally.
~Helen Steiner Rice~

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Angel Unaware:
She stopped by our home one beautiful day
Just for a moment, she said to play
We loved her, caressed her, could we have known
She belonged to Heaven, was never our own.
The sun went down, she hastened away
Saying, "Come to see me in my home someday
Brothers and Sisters, Mom and Dad too.
Now don't forget, I'll be watching you."
Nor shall we seek her in this world below
The Savior called her and she had to go
One of His children, she loved Him you see
For she sang of Him always, to Daddy and Me.
Oh, how we loved her, could we have known
She belonged to Heaven, was never our own
May the Angels caress you as we used to do
Rest in peace darling, we'll not forget you.
~Phoebe Shoemaker~

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A Mother's Love:
I didn't have to look into your eyes
To fall in love with you.
I didn't have to hear you cry
To know you loved me too.
I didn't need to hold your hand
To cherish you always.
Within my womb we shared our hearts.
You touched my soul
You sweetened my spirt.
You gave me memories I'll always hold dear.
Yes my heart aches since you departed so soon
But a mother's love does not end with death.
For you are my child
Forever my love is yours.
~Author Unknown~

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When you lose a parent. You lose your Past.
When you lose a spouse. You lose your present.
When you lose a child. You lose your future.

A child that loses a parent is an orphan.
A man who loses his wife is a widower.
A women who loses her husband is a widow.
There is no name for a parent that loses a child,
for there is no word to describe this pain.

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