The way you want me to be is impossible. I can't be part of the perfection. My soul is shaken, unsteady are my thoughts. It's all a dream to me. I wonder why I'm even her, I don't belong. I tried before, almost ruining my dreams just to be a part of it all. My thoughts are different, I wonder is this is even real. The undescribable feelings flow unevenly across the paper, propelled by a desire I can't explain, I wish I could. The thoughts within my mind are hard to express. I'm under pressure, be this, do that, you're all wrong, why can't you fit? I know I'm different but why is that unacceptable? The hard to break rules that bound you to the ground are there to stay. You can't escape your prejudice. Maybe someday, you'll see we're all someone. I need to be me,I can't think like you. Without my dreams, I lose my soul, my desire to exist. I'm trying to survive here, with myself. The thoughts that are constantly racing through my head are my reality, making me who I am. Sometimes I wonder if there's any purpose? Maybe I'm filling space. All I want is acceptance for being unique, I don't think it's so much to ask. I am alive, overflowing with fantasy and hope. I wish you could see in my head, to realize it's not that bad. What I say, may sound weird,but try to see me, not my appearance, but my soul. You're selective about what you hear, you've already condemned me to a life of an outcast. I will escape and fly away. ************************************************************************************************* I've tried to get over you, it's just no use, but I know you hurt, too. The stuff I put you through, the harm caused, I never meant to do. Try to understand, I care, I'm laying it all out, my soul is bare. I'm really hurting here, at least I have the friendship, which I'll always hold so dear. I wish you would love me, forget all the bad things, and just be. Deep down,I know I've done wrong, but it's taken me so long to realize I've loved you all along. The other relationship didn't mean a thing, I didn't see it then, but compared to you, it was only a fling. I love you today, I'll love you tomorrow Take away my pain and end all this sorrow. ******************************************************************************************* The pressure you put on me to succeed, is only pushing me under. I'm trying as hard as I can, but it's getting hard. The stress I'm under seems invisible to you. You only see that I'm not up to your standards. It's harder than you may believe to make it in this world, filled with hate and competition. And you're making me do it alone. I need your support. Please help me. ********************************************************************************************* The reason I believe in my dreams, is because of you. You gave me the confidence I needed to go on. I didn't have the self esteem, I didn't want to be here. Then you came along, you became my friend, my love. The more I got to know you, my world became better. I needed the things you gave me, just listening to me, being there were the best gifts you could ever give. You're one of my best friends. I could never live without you. When I succeed, I'll remember this and say it's all because of you. ********************************************************************************************* What's wrong with me? Why can't I shake these feelings? I know you're gone. When the smoke that clouded my vision, finally cleared, you were nowhere to be seen. I want to leave, I want to be happy again. Despite what you and everyone else believes, inside, I'm a mess I try to cover with false happiness. For once, I wish someone would see through my charade, and give me the comfort I need. ********************************************************************************************** I want to tell you that I'm always here, I know how you feel, and I'm willing to listen. I wish that things were different for you, you don't deserve this pain. I'm sure that things will get better, even if you think your heart will never mend,it will. It might not ever be the same but fixed so that you can go on. It's horrible to be hurt by those you love, but the pain will someday fade.I would like to comfort you although I'm sure I never could. When you're down and feel like you're all alone, realize that you will always have me. I'm sure you know how I feel, the emotions that are never mentioned, but I'm happy just being here and being your friend. I hope I can bring a smile to your face. I want to hear your laughter and know that you're okay. Everything that happens is meant to be, don't give up and stay stuck in this place, that's always filled with misery. Try to remember that when you love,you'll have to pay the price. Whenever you feel that emotion, so strong that it knocks you down, you must know you're taking a risk. Sometimes it's worth the heartache, if it's with someone who feels the same, but otherwise, it's not going to signify anything. With love you might have the heartbreak,but without love, you'll die. Love is the reason that you were put here, it's the basis of your existence. The only thing you need to do, is love the right individual. Maybe you'll make mistakes and be careless with your emotions but sometimes you need to feel the pain, to know that you're alive. The people who don't believe in love, don't believe in life. ************************************************************************************************* Tell me you can take the hurt away. Tell me you can heal my broken heart. Tell me you'll stay by my side, even when things are rough. Tell me you love me. Tell me this love is real, it won't ever disappear. Tell me when the pain overwhelms me, you'll be here to make things alright. Tell me we can spend one moment together. Tell me it's not over, and you're still with me. *************************************************************************************************