I don't where to start. I don't know anything as of late. Everything I used to be so sure of is suddenly gone. I made this choice, to leave, and I will not go back. I refuse to look back. I am here. I love it. It's just that...now things are different.
Before I ended the previous chapter of my life, I adored you. Even if it was from afar, my life seemed to revolve around you, even if I refused to believe it. Each morning, you were on my mind as I awoke. Every evening, you were the thought that sung me to sleep. How was it that you had captivated me so? How was it that I lived life only to speak to you? Sweet? Loving? Pathetic? Foolish? Desperate? All of the above.
But somewhere between then and now, things changed. Perhaps the different surroundings changed me. Perhaps I changed me. All I know now is that what I feel for you is not the same. I used to look forward to talking to you; it's not even that now I don't. I still do. But I do not get that small feeling in my tummy anymore...my heart does not feel as though it were loving you anymore. And I cannot do anything to change it...I wish I could. I wish so much that I could love you the way you want me to, the way you think you love me.
I know not what to say. Sorry seems insufficient...but that is the only word in the English language that expresses sorrow. I can add my adverbs: gravely, greatly, unbelievably, completely, etc. But it is not like that would make the apology any more sufficient. So, with an uneasiness over my choice of words:
I am sorry...
