--for someone I can’t forget or find…
It’s been a long time since I last spoke to you…I’ve often wondered how you were doing, wondered if you’d call on me if you ever needed someone to help you, wondered if you would come back to me as quietly as you left. I can’t even remember when I let you go or if that was even my choice. Is that something I should remember? I remember all my goodbyes…I don’t remember yours. Even though I regret never getting to wish you luck in your life and tell you how much you meant to me, I’m glad you slipped away when you thought I was ready to face the world alone; I’m glad I never had to say goodbye and end everything we had. I don’t think I would’ve ever been able to leave you behind if I had to…I’m content knowing that you knew I was ready.
I’ve been thinking of you more and more, though I’m not too sure why…perhaps because I need you now? Perhaps because I miss you, perhaps because I want you to chase away my tears as you once did. I guess there are some people you just never get over, some people who change your entire life, some people who haunt you forever. But I’m glad your ghost decided to stay, even if you didn’t. Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks…it’s been a long time coming, I know, but thank you for everything; I would never have gotten so far if it hadn’t been for you. I just wanted you to know that.
