Sometimes when I sit alone, I have time to think about things that I wouldn't think about if I weren't alone. I am sure everyone understands this concept. That is why most people kill themselves when they are alone. You never see to many people plan a family suicide watch. I can just see that. Inviting all your family to your house or into your room to watch you take your own life. That would be funny. No, actually that would be sad. It is even sad to think about. Do you know what is truely sad. A friend of mine that I went to school with died last year. LAST YEAR. His parents, for what ever reason they can make an excuse for, has not yet put up a headstone. This pisses me off. It is like they never knew him. I go to the grave very often but still no head stone. I have gone over and over thoughts of why there would be no head stone. I can't figure it out. These people are both teachers. Surely they can afford it. Or maybe he was just such a disgrace to them that even in death they couldn't let things go. That is truely fucking sad. To have your life ended at 22 is sad but to have your parents act like idiots about the whole thing. That makes it worse then anything I can imagine. You know though what is worse. The fact that I went to his gravesite on his birthday and there was nothing from his mother, father, or sisters. It was like they put him in the ground and forgot his soul ever existed. This makes me angry like nothing ever has. How could you just forget a person when he had to be the best person alive. I guess though that the only ones that really knew him were the ones that loved him like he should have been loved. To bad for his mom and dad, they will never know the man we all got to love.