A year ago he committed a crime that should never had been known to the human race. The most degrading and sickening thing anyone could do to another person. He raped a girl I used to know. She was the sweetest soul you would ever meet. And he took her life and shattered it. She committed suicide February 1st 1999.
She was not the only girl this happened to. He took advantage of many girls in my town. Two years ago I was one of them. That is how I know he did it. Because I know first hand this guy cannot take "no" for an answer. He doesn't know the meaning of the word. He has no respect for the girls that say it. All he did to me was indecent assault. In the middle of the Christmas parade, with his young niece on his lap.
That is how sick he is. I never brought charges against him. My two years to bring them were up the 2nd of this month. The past two Christmas parades I have not been to. I cannot bring myself to go. There are at least 20 other girls that never brought any charges. Indecent assault, to rape. It doesn't matter. It shouldn't.
There was only one girl left who's charges still stood during the trial this past week. I have so much respect for her. She had the courage to at least try. The charges were dropped yesterday. Not guilty. What a bunch of BS.
When I found that out this morning I crumbled. Talking to a counselor I discovered things about myself. The reasons I am so angry, the reasons I am so protective of my younger sister, the reasons I just want to crawl in a corner and cry. The tears may have stung but they did not fall. It's hard for me to cry. So I write this instead.
I hope someone found comfort in knowing things like this do happen to others. And if anyone is reading this that can relate. Please e-mail me. It may be too late for me, but for someone else, if they have someone to talk to in time it is never too late. And it is never too late to vent.
December 16, 1999
