When I lay and think, in my bed at night, the day you'll arrive, seems nowhere in sight. I toss and I turn, dreaming of you, opening my eye's... checking if my dream came true. It didn't, again, and a tear starts to roll, weeping quietly... my pillow I hold.

Many sleepless nights I've prayed for you, my love. God touched my soul from heaven above He's answered my prayers for my bride to be. I've never felt this lucky, God did this for me. That's a question I asked each and every night.

He must think your special, Joy, and I know he's right. No other has made me feel so complete, my whole life was lived, just so we could meet. All these thoughts and more going through my head. I fall asleep not worrying, but dreaming of you... instead

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"Dont forget about a person because of a bad experience, that is just another reason to remember them."

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"If two people give a little bit of effort to make something work, then they would both receive a lot of happiness for there efforts"

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The future starts now. The moment is here Without you near Time passing slowly with little trace I look around but your no where to be found Just looking for your face

I wish you were mine but at this time It is good we are taking a break I know that now your somewhere to be found But i wont run after you, to much at stake.

Im going to bed to much thoughts in my head I hope you stay in touch I will think of you and always care you for very much.

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These letters I type will be my last on this subject for I am putting it all in the past.

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November 25 To give a rose as a symble of love. Just as fast as a roses petals bloom So does it die. You give a rose as a token of your love just to watch it die You write words as you watch the people you love and all they do is pass you by The words express feelings no rose could and all that happends is ur loved one doing something no one should. These words diffrent from a rose since they will never die. Only thing they have in similiar is that one day you will look back on both and start to cry For feelings that are hard to write that no one can express. The feelings just start to build up, till you get depressed. Im sitting in a room of nothing, no one to be by my side. Only thing I feel i can do now is hide my feelings deep inside. When thoughts are thought and words arent said then why do you keep your feelings inside your head, you play many games, but yet I see what you truly want of me. Circles we go around and around until one of us figures out, your feelings are found.

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These words that were spoken and written were feelings felt..they will always be there, but just memories letting me know someone special was once there.

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At times I try, to show you why the way I feel so deep inside

I feel so much the thought of your touch your skin so soft your personality so bright

You cuddle with me I want you to see The way I feel right now

I get butterflies when I Look into your eyes and feel your arms around me

through internet and friends we have found loose ends but now we have each other it's time to be just you and me happy together forever

as times go by, with out any lies I feel my feelings grow stronger with love starting to blossom, I think marriage would be awesome hoping our parents will agree

Hand and hand we take that stand my dreams becoming true. I've finally found the one I love and all I need is you.

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"Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you...or are you going back to the one you love? Someones going to cry when they know they've lost you.....Someones going to thank the starts above..."

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Forgive and forget as new beginnings lead to new ends and from new ends become new beginnings, so take with passion the cycle of life and live it up to its circumfrence.-DN

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Light of Rain

As the rain is falling from the sky So have you picked me up and taught me to fly The light that shines from your eyes Lets me see that I have not passed you by

The words that are spoken from your lips The force of them and how they hit Making no distinct patterns Just the pain from falling from above

With all good things most come to an end As you taught me to fly, wish I were taught to land. Lost my feet, no longer can stand And yet all I ask is you take my hand

You are rejecting me And the light in your eyes I cannot see Dunno where you are So I look up in the sky and choose a star

Amor the star above, the star that is yours Now in darkness I rely on the light of amor only when amor and your light combine can I see the rest of my life.

Never ceasing, feelings always persisting Now in the shower, its been about an hour And yet the rain like water falls from above. If Only the shower of water could be my love -DN

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Every day a new obstacle appers, every day a new hope, a knew fear, all we can do is rely on god to pick us up after we have fallen, after being led astray..and that is what brings us to tomorrow.** -DN

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Nov 4

When the feeling of love is shared between two people The meaning of life and all its components become clear When im sitting alone at my table There are no reasons for crying no reason for tears

My only worry, my only fear Your not close enough,your not here Times are passing with little time to spare Your heart your voice your touch i long to bear

Words now being told Dreams are becoming bold I hope we are getting closer with every prayer In hope of someday I will wake up and you will be there.

Dreams becoming fantasies Fantasies becoming real The only thing I wanted The only thing that could heal

Time is getting late my words will never be for when they are spoken they are the opposite of hate. One more chance I can only hope you will see.

*That the meaning to all this is far greater then me, but for you, watching your lips in a upward motion as a smile breaks across your face, as the muslces in your body concave around me, the great feeling of just not any touch, but your touch. The feeling of being wanted, not wanted by just anyone, but by you, and that is why I do what I do, for every breath you take I want to impose a happy memory, and from that memory can start something special,something greater then just you, or just me, but US.

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Nov 4

Looking at my ceiling i stare memories and thoughts running through my head Do i just forget and say who cares Maybe it is better if I was just dead

tears filling my eyes cant cry i need to see clear remember gazing at the skies thanking god for being near

In time I will try, To feel deep inside The worries that have always been there But with out any help, I might not succeed and my life,my hear,my love is gone for eternity.

So when I wonder why I do The things i have done today I sit back and think of a beatiful girl the name that warms my face.

Sarah you are an amazing thing and I hope someday you will see but right now I dont deserve you your fit only for a king.

watching you through my eyes I painfully made a mistake never wanted to say goodbye My heart begins to break

Waterfalls take there course and make a path down my face now if only I could have taken that spot That spot beside you,my very own place

I know all things must come to an end however I never want to let go if you stayed with me i would promise thee the world as you know.

But until then I must depend on gods own good grace and if not now then when I guess I will see you in gods great place -Dn

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