Monday, October 29  2001

-Eugene Kennedy

Literals

To the ones who read this journal (in other words the 4 readers) I owe an apology.  Last night's journal sucked.  I mean it was bad.  It wasn't interesting, it wasn't revealing, it was just words meant to fill space - so here I am writing a better one, sort of to make up for the previous one.  I read over my journal entries often (I guess that's primarily what they are there for) and yeah, I realized that so here is a better entry which covers a little more about my weekend as well as today's anecdotes, anomalies, and aspirate applications (I love the letter "a", I wish I could get more of those). 

As for my mood of frustration, well sure it's still there.  But we'll overlook that for now.  Resolution doesn't come so easy...at least for the best things in life.  

I have one pet peeve.  One HUGE pet peeve.  In fact this may be the biggest one of them all.  I absolutely cannot stand it when someone cancels a previous planned event with me for someone else.  Now a detailed explanation.  If someone has scheduled a time to hang out with me and cancels due to a family situation, they're tired, they're sick, they just don't feel like it, a test is coming up, something along those lines - it's cool with me.  I'm an easy going fella.  But if they cancel because they decided later on...hmm this person is doing something else I wanna do, I'll just cancel with Jon and do it with them.  NOTHING upsets me more.  This happened to me recently and I am not in the least happy about it.  I mean I don't let many things get to me at all, you could wreck my car on accident and I wouldn't be pissed off, but that...that situation greatly disappoints me.  People don't have to work too hard to earn my friendship, I think it's only fair that they respect and not take my time or friendship for granted. 

Last night I went to dinner with who I thought would be a few of my friends.  Instead it was this WHOLE big group of people.  Yes I know those people but I'm not very close with them nor do I have the desire to be.  I really don't like it when all people talk about are material things and how much they can drink (in terms of alcohol), or what rave they're going to attend next.  I mean I don't mind them that much but I don't feel like I can have a real true friendship with people like that.  Some people can, I can't.  I often see differences between them and they get mad at each other for taking out the girl that another one likes...it's all just weird for me.  So I ended up eating with them.  The food was really good, but like it says in Proverbs, I don't know it verbatim but something about it's better to eat a small meal in peace than a large feast in anger (or in my case, uncomfortable-ness).

Waking up today was a step into the cold world...literally.  The worst feeling is getting out of your warm shelter aka blanket and finding that the room window is open - figure that one out.  It was so cold.  I went to class late, but I was cool about it.  No rush, just slowly walking.  It's funny to see people running to class, especially with a book bag.  It's so awkward looking.

ME 375 - Modeling of Dynamic Systems is now tied for least favorite class.  I never sleep in it but it's confusing as hell.  We did fluid systems today - I never thought I'd have to learn fluid mechanics in school again after that horrid class.  History repeats itself.  

I've got a friend, I'll keep her name discreet but I'll call her Jenny.  Jenny is sad and confused and hurt.  She is a freshman here at Purdue and happens to be dating a friend of mine, who seems to be unsure of what he wants now.  I don't know I really don't, it's sad.  I hate seeing my friends hurt by a relationship - it just sucks.  So I was on the phone last night with her until 1 am.  In my head I just wanted to sleep so so so bad and I didn't know what else to tell her but she was on the verge of tears and I since I do care and felt bad I stayed talking to her basically saying the same stuff over again.  I hope she resolves it soon.  They just took it way too fast - they met and started going out within like...3 weeks.  Man, you gotta know the person before you get in a relationship - isn't that common sense?  But I feel bad for her.  As for him, he should know better - he's about my age.  For her I hope she takes this lesson but doesn't start dissing guys.  That is just sad...when girls diss a guy who really really like her.  

I love chocolate.  I could put chocolate with almost anything sweet.  Pour it on and keep it coming!

You rock my world.

Current song playing :  Harry Connick Jr.  - It had to be you

Line from the song : Some of us have seen.  Might never be mean.  Might never be cross, or try to be boss, but they wouldn't do.  For nobody else gave me thrill, with all your faults I love ya still.  It had to be, wonderful you, it had to be you. 

My new Dell laptop battery came in! Now I can finally use my laptop like it's suppose to be used!

Exhibit A : My first heat mass transfer exam - yuck