Nobody else at the party except for Lilah & Kevin themselves knew what happened near Emily's front door.The guilt forming in Lilah's soul was heavy and she decided she had to say something before it got too far.The right moment would come very soon.
Lilah didn't tell her mother that she was having a date pick her up.Her mom just saw a car and assumed it was one of Matt's bandmate's cars,and that she was just out for a night of fun with friends.She didn't tell her mom that she had a 28 year old Backstreet Boy picking her up for a date.
Having the usual bad week at school,the next Saturday was another escape for Lilah.She felt so confident & bright around Kevin.But something didn't occur to her when she agreed to date Kevin in a public place.Satuday night..movie theatre..teenagers...the equation hadn't registered until they arrived.The car ride there was awful.Feeling confident that Kevin wouldn't be a pig,Lilah had put on a short skirt.To her frustation,Kevin had his hand on her thigh the whole time.His eyes fell on her legs so many times,and Lilah kept pulling her skirt down to hide herself.There was anger boiling on her face one that Kevin obviously couldn't read seeing as he wasn't the slightest bit aware of her past.It was this kind of crap that made her so unhappy in the first place.Sure,Kevin was different from most guys,but she still wasn't about to put up with this.She roughly pushed his hand away,and saw a look of confusion in his eyes.To her surprise,he must've read her expression,because he didn't do it again.At least in the car ride.When they arrived at the movie,that was a different story.
When they entered the doors of the movie theatre,Lilah instantly recognized a few people she knew,and huddled next to Kevin to try & hide herself,thinking they might blow her cover.She grimaced as she saw one girl she absolutely hated walking in her direction.
"Kevin,I don't want popcorn.Lets just go see the damn movie," she whispered,trying to hurry him up in a different direction.
"Don't be silly.I'll buy it for you.Whatever you don't eat,I will."
"Cmon!!" she tugged on his arm nervously,but he didn't budge.
"HIIII," Lilah heard a nasal voice.
"HIIIII,Allison Wonderland.Go AWAAAAAY,Allison Wonderland," she sneered.
Kevin turned to look what was happening.
"Is this your DAAAAATE??"
"Yeah,I have onnnnne!" Lilah mocked her.
"Don't forget the condoms,you god damn slut!"
Allison walked away and gave Lilah the middle finger.She couldn't help but almost cry at her heartlessness.
"Who the hell was that?" Kevin looked concerned.
"Nobody.Its OK."
"Are you sure?"
"YES,I'm sure! Now lets go see the fucking movie already,alright?"
The night had just begun as the two of them found their seats all the way in the back.Lilah wouldn'tve minded making out a little bit,she loved to kiss,but she wasn't about to stand for Kevin trying to cop a feel,especially after the car incident.She figured he would've found out she didn't like that,given the icy stare she had flashed him before.But he didn't.Lilah squirmed nervously in her seat as she felt Kevin's hand go up her skirt.
His warm hand edged through the sides of her lacy panties and he started to tease her clit with his big fingers.Lilah didn't know what to do.As turned on as she felt,her juices flowing like a river through her vagina,she knew if she wanted to make any kind of real relationship with Kevin she couldn't stand for this,something that had happened too many times before and made her feel like a lousy slut.She flinched as she felt his finger enter her pussy and started to wriggle it around,while he pinched & tugged on her swelling clit...Putting reality before arousal,Lilah stood up,and smacked him hard across his face,causing a few people in the movie to turn around to look.She adjusted her skirt and stomped out of the movie,dumping the whole bucket of popcorn over Kevin's head.
"God damn you," she muttered.She made her way out of the movie and thru the doors,to sit on the curb of the parking lot,crying.Kevin followed close behind,and it broke his heart to see her so upset.Lilah looked at with cold & miserable eyes as he sat down next to her,and put his arm around her shoulder.
"I'm sorry," he whispered,kissing her hair."is there something you wanna tell me?"
"Yes,there is."
Lilah stared blankly out into the warm Florida sky.
"Do you know how long its taken me to find someone like you? Who makes me feel like I'm worth more than dirt? Every guy I go out with has his hands under my skirt & tries to reach third base with me.And it makes me feel like a cheap slut,like I'm worth nothing.That's why I didn't want you to touch me.I want this relationship to work,but it can't if it's solely based on sex.It just can't."
Lilah took a deep breath,and continued.
"I won't be comfortable with something like this until I'm totally comfortable with you.As much as I enjoy your company,this is not my ideal first date. You don't put your hand under my skirt until the words "I love you" come out of those beautiful lips of yours.It sounds corny but god damn it Kevin,I'm so sick of this.You don't know how many dates I've had to put up with this crap.I'm not a fucking piece of meat."
She huffed and turned away from him.Kevin sighed.
"I'm sorry.How was I supposed to know? God damn it,what else are you hiding from me?"
"Nothing,Kevin.Nothing.I'm not hiding a thing."
She turned away from him as they walked in cold silence to his car.