"You dream about it too?" I asked softly. Taylor nodded and said,
"I dreamt that I got him, I grabbed his shirt and pulled him back, he was okay, not me though, I slammed into the ground, broke my nose and my nuts were killing me. But Gage was okay, he was laughing and he asked if he was in trouble." I sniffed and we both started crying. That was the way it should have been.
"Where ever Gage is now, I’m sure he’s happy. But I sure a hell miss him." I sighed. I didn’t want to think about how Gage would never jump on me to wake me up for school. He’s never be a teenager, never kiss a girl, my kids wouldn’t know their only sane uncle. That set me off, I cried and cried and I felt as though the pain was never going to end. Taylor just held me, he cried with me. He knew the pain I was going through, Gage and Mackie had been best friends. Even if they were a year apart in age.
Outside it was growing dark, we just sat there in my room in the dark and let out all the pain inside of us. Finally we calmed down, there were no tears left, but the pain was still there.
"Bay, I know this is probably the last thing in the world that you want to do, but I know a friend of Ike’s who is having a party kinda thing...." he stopped talking. I guess he was letting it sink into my head. I agreed to go with him, not really thinking.
"Trust me, you’ll feel a whole lot better." He said reassuring me. I was so tired, I was in a daze, so whatever Taylor said didn’t make much sense to me.
"Come on then, get dressed and we’ll go." He said to me.
"Tay, my parents won’t let me go to some party-" I began, my head began to clear a little.
"It’s okay, I’ll talk to them. Just get changed." He said and slipped out of the room. I looked out of my bedroom window, there were at least a hundred cars parked out there, on the side of the road. That road where my little brother got run over. With a sigh, I turned round and opened my wardrobe door. I changed into a short black skirt and a black halter neck top and threw my leather jacket over the outfit. Taylor reappeared while I was looking for my knee high boots.
"Damn it Bay, turn on the light." He muttered and flicked on the lamp sitting on the desk. He looked at me and I looked at myself in the mirror.
"God I look like shit." I said. Taylor didn’t laugh, he just took my hand and tugged me down the stairs. I reached the bottom and all the noise had stopped. I pushed my head up and realised everyone was looking at me sympathetically. I wanted to scream at them to stop feeling sorry for me. It was Gage who they were supposed to be feeling sorry for! I opened my mouth, ready to explode, but Taylor tightened his grip.
"Don’t Bay, don’t Gage wouldn’t like it." He said. I nodded and pushed my head down.
"Come on Ike, let’s go." He said lowly. The noise level began to rise again, all the people acted like I wasn’t there.
"Hey, where are you guys going?" Zac asked, walking over to us. He’s had a huge crush on me for almost forever. Usually he was clinging to me and asking me out every second of the day. But today he just stood there, unable to even look me in the eyes.
"No Zac, you can’t." Isaac stated, firmly. Zac looked at me pleadingly.
"Why not, I’m sure he wouldn’t-" I began, Taylor cut me off.
"That’s not such a good idea. Zac, we’re going over to Teddy’s house." Taylor said. I didn’t know who Teddy was, but Zac did, his eyes widened,
"You’re not going to take Bay there are you?!?"
"Actually we are. Zac she needs to cool down a bit." Isaac said. Zac walked away, mad at his brothers because they were hurting me, but I was totally oblivious to what was happening. We walked out into the cool night air and crossed the street. Then jumped into Isaac’s car and sped off to Teddy’s house.