Dead Inside:
And the music plays,
I am dead inside.
I try to find myself within music,
Yet I find nothing.
I try to "feel" with music,
Yet I feel nothing.
A zombie,the walking dead.
I no longer surf or dl music for myself
But I am consummated by the songs my "friends"
Ask me to download.
I remember these songs,don't I?
I play their songs and see their emotions and wonder why?
Have I bottomed out that far that a song that used to move me oceans wide does nothing now?
No sadness.No joy.No anger.No direction of memory.
Comfortably numb.
I read lyrics on some of the should be most moving songs of the current time I live in suggested by my daughter.
She joyfully asks me to take a moment out of my all to familiarly busy,trying to survive life.
The song is "My Immortal" and it looks moving.
I heard it on the radio today.
I wonder if I can ever feel anything again beyond numbness.
Time will tell.