Have you ever wondered what a difference one little change would make in your life?

If you had taken a right instead of a left. If you'd said hello instead of goodbye. If you'd found exactly the right words instead of fumbling around with the wrong ones. If you'd decided to go instead of staying behind. If you'd gone to one more place or gotten home just one second earlier. If you'd walked away instead of turning back around. If you'd gotten to the phone just in time instead of a second too late.

Have you ever wondered what would happen if you said what you really meant instead of shying away from the truth. Have you kicked around the idea of how different your life would be if you'd actually looked him in the eye instead of looking at the ground. Have you pondered what your life would be like if you just come in at your curfew instead of staying out that extra hour with your friends. Have you really thought about any of these things. I mean really let them run through you mind. Have you ever just let yourself fall into its own ideas.

It's amazing what you'll come up with. The world of "What ifs……" it's an ugly, ugly yet wondrous world. You never know what might have been…… Have you wondered if you'd said what you really meant if he'd still be here.

If you were able just to squeeze out every emotion you had and spilled it all out into words. If you were able to just say it. If you could have told him how you really felt; if you said it all while you had the chance, would he still be here. Would he have stayed around and would he have been willing to give it up for you. Would he have loved you to? Or what if you have bit your tongue, if you'd been able to hold back those words, would you be better off. If you had stopped yourself from letting your emotions take over. If you'd been able to contain yourself. Would he have understood it all just by the look in your eyes. If you didn't say it would that have stopped him from thinking too far into it all. Would that have made him stay? If you hadn't told him exactly how you felt would that have kept him from running away?

What if you had decided to stay at home that night, if you'd just stayed behind would none of this all happened. If you had decided that it wasn't a good idea, could you have prevented it all from taking place. Could you have stopped the accident. Would everything be exactly as it was. Would you still be where you were. If you had decided not to go would you have changed everything, would it all have remained exactly the same. Or what would have happened if you decided to go. If you had changed your mind and decided not to blow them off. If you'd said okay, would you have been able to stop the inevitable. Would you have held them back those few more seconds, would you have kept everyone there just a little longer, and would that have stopped what was going to happen. If you'd gone instead of staying behind would you have been able to prevent, would it have all been okay.

Have you ever kicked around the idea of what your life would be like if you'd walked away. If all those times you'd been given the chance to leave him and all this behind, you had. If you'd said goodbye and just walked out the door never looking back. Would you have eventually gone back to him? Would you have inevitably fallen back into it? Or would that be it. If you'd said good bye and really walked away would you have saved yourself months and months of pain and suffering. Would you be ten times stronger. Or would he have come back to you. Would it have made him realize what you really were to him. Would it have made you two better together? If you'd just walked out the door would it have made your life a million times easier? Or have you thought about your life if you'd turned around that last time. If you had came back instead of walking away.

What would your life be like if you hadn't walked away from everything you ever knew and loved. If you'd stayed there would you be happier than you could ever imagine. Would you life just been constant bliss. Or would it have been an unbearable hell. Would he have never changed. Would it have only made you weaker or would you have everything you ever wanted.

What if you turned around and ran back into his arms would you have found the love of you life? Have you ever pondered who was on the other end of that phone line, you know the one you just barely missed. Have you ever thought that maybe that was the most important call of your life. If maybe that was the call that was going to tell you that you won a million dollars, or that you got that scholarship or won the contest you'd been waiting to hear about. Have you ever wondered if that was him making one last ass attempt, if that was the last time he was able to get up the courage and make the phone call. Have you ever wondered if that was him telling you that he loved you. Or if that was the apology from the friend that you’’ve been waiting for and dying to make.

What if you'd made if there just in time and gotten that phone call, would it have made a profound impact on your life? Or have you thought about if maybe you'd taken a second longer with your keys or tripped on your way to the phone, what if you'd just missed that call. What if the call from the office hadn't been picked up, would you have been able to avoid it. What if you had missed the call from him, the one where he told you it was over. Would he have ended it anyway, or would you have been able to change his mind with the next call. What if you'd missed the call telling you to go pick that up from the store, would that have stopped this all from happening would you have been able to avoid that life changing event.

What if you had missed that phone call would you have been able to put off that mental breakdown much longer or wouldn't it have made a difference? What if you had been able to look him in the eyes? What if you had been able to hold your head up and stare right at him, would he have stared back at you. Would that one look have brought back all the feelings? Would one look straight in the eyes restore your confidence in life or would it only be met by nothing. Would he been staring at the floor avoiding you. What if you had been able to look that stranger in the eyes would you have met the love of your life, would he have been the one you've been waiting on, was that the soul mate you've been waiting for. Or suppose you had lost confidence at the last second and stared straight at the floor.

Suppose you weren't able to tell that he wasn't starring back at you. Suppose you were given the luxury of wondering if he was instead of knowing he wasn't. Would your life have been that much better. Would you have avoided that break down. Would your life be simplified. Or would you have missed the last chance you were ever going to get. What if he was looking back at you and you were staring straight at the floor. What if you made him change his mind. What if you took yourself out of the game.

The land of "What Ifs……" ouch. You never know. One teeny tiny little thing could have sent your life in a totally difference direction. If you had done one thing just a little differently you could be living an entirely different life. Maybe it would have been better. Maybe it would have been worse. But it defiantly would have been different. But we don't live in the past. We live in the future. Take your knowledge from the past, but use if towards building a future. You can't change the past you can only hope to learn from it.