“See ya Trease.” Abby waved as she left the room. It had been three months since I had last talked to Brian, since I had seen him that day that I had left. Pulling my knees to my chest, I gazed around the messy dorm room and sighed. Everyone was gone for spring break but me, and I had the place to myself. Picking up the remote to the stereo, I clicked it on and my ears were automatically met by some familiar voices. I smiled and sang along with the soulful rhythm.
“Looking back on the things I’ve done, I was trying to be someone, I played my part and kept you in the dark, now let me show you the shape of my heart.” I sang out of tune. Stood from the couch and started dancing around the living room, I loved this song, it must have been something new cause this was probably my second time hearing it on the radio. “I’m hear with my confession, got nothing to hide no more, I don’t where to start but to show you the shape of my heart.” It was Nick singing.
Nick. God I still loved him. I talked to him once since I left, but the phone conversation wasn’t anything but a fierce argument about what happened and why I didn’t wake him up to say goodbye. I felt my eyes start to water up while a tear slid down my cheek. ‘Why did it have to end this way?’ I thought to myself. I knew Brian had moved on cause I had heard something on MTV about him and Jennifer being engaged. I cried more at the thought of them being together. Just then, the ringing of my phone bisected my thoughts. Reaching over I picked it up into my hands and answered it.
“Hello.”
“Is Theresa there?” A southern-voice had asked. It was him, it was Brian. My heart began to beat faster and my hands started to shake. Was I nervous?
“Um…this is her. May I ask who is calling?” I wanted to play stupid even though I knew who it was.
“Hey…” He trailed off, “it’s Brian. Remember me?” I could hear slight jokingness in his voice, but I didn’t think it was that funny.
“Yeah, how could I forget you?” I hissed quietly.
“How are you?” He asked. I just looked down at my feet and sighed.
“Fine. Just trying to pass my classes.”
“That’s good.”
“You?”
“I’m good. Just finishing up some lyrics to a new song that the guys and me wrote. Have you heard the new song?” Brian questioned.
“Yeah.” I nodded. “I liked it.”
“That’s good.” The line was quiet for a while before I decided to break the ice.
“I heard about you and Jennifer. Congratulations.”
“Thanks…” Brian trailed off, “but, it didn’t exactly last.”
“What do you mean?” I jumped slightly then sighed. He didn’t do it because of me.
“Because I was in love with someone else.” He whispered. “Theresa…”
“Brian! No…don’t, just don’t even say it.” I frowned. “I know you’ll regret it later.” With that I hung up. I didn’t want to hear it, not again. After I did, I regretted even doing it. “GOD I’M SO STUPID!” I yelled standing from the couch and stomping into my room before falling on my stomach across my bed and bawling like a baby. I loved him.
-A month later-
I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. There was a wedding invitation in my hands, and it was addressed to me.
‘Please come Trease, everyone misses you and I want you to come see me and Bri get married. We’d both love it if you showed. Please!’
I just stared at the pastel card that was written in perfect cursive.
“DAMN IT!” I cursed tossing it onto the kitchen table. The wedding was in two days and only down the road from my dorm. I debated with myself if wether I should go, but I gave up after about an hour. I was hopeless.
“What’s wrong?” I heard my roommate ask. I just pointed to the card and sighed.
“They sent me a fucking invitation.” I frowned looking at Abby. I watched as she picked up the card and read it.
“I’m sorry girl.” She whispered placing it back upon my many books and walking towards me to envelop me in a hug. “You don’t have to go you know.”
“Yeah I know.” I nodded as we pulled apart. “Put it’s my best friends wedding…both of theirs. I can’t let down Jennifer.”
“I understand. Listen, I’ll go if you want me to.” She offered.
“No, I need to do this on my own.” I stated. “I’ll just ignore Brian.”
“Shit! I’d do more than ignore Brian.” Abby laughed. I just giggled lightly at her comment then left the kitchen.
“Well if I’m going, I guess I’ll have to find something decent to wear.”
-Two days later-
Shifting slightly in my seat, I tugged at my light pink skirt as I watched Brian and Jennifer pronounce their love for one another. I made me sick watching them. It should have been me not her. As soon as I thought of that, I totally regretted it, Jennifer deserved him, not me. Just as the couple kissed I clapped along with everyone else while they headed down the aisle.
“Beautiful wedding wasn’t?” I heard someone next to me ask. I just nodded with a smile on my face as everyone began to stand and leave for the reception. That’s where I have to face them…both.
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