Don't Wanna Lose You Now

I am going to Warn you right now...this is a very sad story! get out the tissues..hehe.

It was a long day I thought.I had just got home from work.I was in the recording studio recoding for our new album coming out in October.I went home to my girlfriend Mary.She was sitting on the couch playing Mario Party. "Hello Mary.Did ya miss me?"I said giving her a kiss. "You know I did"She said sweetly. "Bri and LeighAnne said that they might be coming over later on" "Oh..what time?"She asked. "I dunno..they didn't say."I said sitting on the couch. "Oh."I got up from the couch.I went upstairs.I turned on "Bad Touch" and fed the dogs.I checked my messages.My mom called she wanted to know when she was going to meet Mary for the first time.I didn't have time to call her back.It was too late. "Nick!"I heard a call from downstairs. "Yea"I called back. "Brian and LeighAnne are here" "Okay I'll be right down."I walked downstairs.Brian and LeighAnne were just getting ready to play N64 with Mary. "Yo,Bri what's up?"I said. "Nothing much.I just saw you not to long ago."Bri said. "I knew that."I said beginging to laugh. "Well me and LeighAnne wanted to know if you and Mary wanted to go out tonight?"Brian asked. "Yea...sure.I guess we could." "Cool..let's go"LeighAnne said in a hurry to go. "Hold on a sec let me me get ready."Mary said fixing her hair. "You look fine"I said to Mary. "Thanx!"We all went in seprate cars.Me and Mary in the durango,and Brian and LeighAnne in the beemer.We followed Bri's car.

We arrived at the club.Brian and LeighAnne went off dancing.Me and Mary stayed back drinking.It was almost 2am.Me and Mary wanted to go home.I was drunk as hell.Mary had already passed out.She was in the front seat with me.I tried to control the car.I didn't do to well of that.I rammed into another car.I was alright.Mary on the other hand wasn't.I called Brians cell phone.Him and LeighAnne were here asap.We took her to the hospital.I told them that I was driving drunk and wasn't thinking stright.The doctor came into the room. "Who here is Nick?" "I am"I said getting up from the chair. "Well...your girlfriend Mary..might have some internal bleeding.We're doing a cat scan right now."He said.

15 minutes has passed since the doctor came in.I saw him walk in. "It looks to me like she might make it.We're still waiting on the scan to come back.You can go see her now."he said. "Thanx!"me,Bri,and LeighAnne walked into her room.It was quiet and peacful.She layed there so innocent.I heard her waking up. "Nick???Is that you?Where am I?"She cried out. "You are in the hospital."I said taking her by the hand. "Why?" "Well...I was driving drunk tonight.And I rammed into another car.I came out okay.We don't know about you yet.We'll know soon though." "Oh..."she layed back down.I saw the doctor. "Nick?I need to talk to you." "Okay hold on.I'll be back.I love you!Bri come with me."I said as I grabbed his shirt and pulled him with me. "I love you too"She got out. "Well..what is it??" "She's not going to make it.We found some bleeding in the brain.We can't stop it." "How long?"I said already having tears devlope. "I am guessing 1 to 2 hours at the most."I began to cry.Brian was also crying.He loved her like a sister.

Me and Brian walked back into the room.Brian told Leigh.She came back in crying to.I looked back down.Weaker and weaker she got.I went right up to her ear and whispered ,"I love you and always will."I said beginging to cry again."I love you too Nick and I always will"Just hearing her voice agian mademe cry even more.I didn't want her to go.If only I wans't a dumbass and drove drunk this never would have happened.I started singing:

i've got this feeling you not going to stay it's burning with in me the fear of losing of slipping away it just keeps getting closer baby whatever reason to leave that i've had my place is always beside you and i wish i didn't need you so bad you're face just won't go away.

I heard a beeping noise.The moniter went off.She stopped breathing.She died.I cried again as if I wasn't already crying before.Brian and LeighAnne drove me home.I couldn't sleep.It wasn't the same without her here with me.All the fans knew the next day.They were all very supportive.

A Year Has Gone By...

It's been a year since everything has happened.I visited Mary's grave today...it was the anniversary.I told her what has been going on with the Backstreet Boys.I never married.I never found anyone that I loved more than Mary to marry.I promised myself..I would never do any of that crap again.I never partied either.I have learned my lesson.I also put this noet that I wrote to Mary.I set it my her grave before I left.It said:

Dear Mary,

I am really sorry this had to happen.I always have loved you and you know that.I just wanted to apologized for driving stupidly.Since we never did get married or have kids..I still think about it everyday.Well I love you and I miss you.

Luv,