It was still dark outside and one light was on in the hotel room; the one by the bed. Malia was in the chair sitting by the window. Nick was sitting on the floor, his back against the door. Another word hadn't been spoken in hours.
Malia looked down at her watch, it was almost 1 in the morning and she was exhausted. She fought off a yawn and pulled her legs up underneath her and tried to fall asleep.
Nick was watching her from the corner of his eye. She closed her eyes and within minutes he could hear her slow, deep breathing. How she had fallen asleep in the position she had, he didn't know. But somehow, it didn't look comfortable.
He wasn't necessarily angry anymore; just hurt. Sure, he hadn't let her explain what had happened and MAYBE he had jumped to assumptions too quickly. He stretched out his long legs and sighed, how everything got so screwed up he would never know.
He knew in the back of his mind that Bryan and Jason all had something do with the Malia/Jason thing happening. But also back in that part of his mind was the thought that Malia had been cheating on him and he had caught her. 'That's ridiculous though...Malia would never hurt me..,' He thought as he rolled his neck from side to side to get the kinks out.
He turned his head and watched her sleep. She looked so tired and so exhausted. He hadn't expected to turn around and see her standing there once he was locked in the room. He had never seen her look so hurt or so lonely...well...since her dad left. He ran a hand through his hair and stood up.
Nick walked over to the chair and waited a minute to make sure she was really sound asleep. He then bent down and picked her up, careful not to wake her. She sighed and shifted a little, but didn't wake up. AJ's room only came with one bed, since he WAS the only one in the room, so he put Malia in the bed under the covers and pulled them back over her. She snuggled deeper into the bed before falling silent. Nick smiled slightly, she was so cute to watch. He then flipped off the light and decided to take the chair. He flung his shirt onto the floor and slid his shoes off before trying to find the most comfortable position to fall asleep in.
"So..think they've killed each other yet?," Kevin asked as everyone rode the elevator back to their floor.
"Malia's probably clawed his eyes out or some shit like that..," AJ said.
Jacob smiled, "They've probably fallen asleep by now."
"Hey..my room only got one bed..think they're sleeping together? And I do mean SLEEP!," AJ said.
Jacob punched AJ in the arm, "Uh huh..sure AJ. Nahh..doubt it....they're too pissed at one another. By the way AJ, where are you sleeping?"
"Crashing in Nick's room I guess."
Brian leaned against the railing and looked at AJ, "So are you going to let them out tomorrow?"
"If they've made up and made out, maybe."
"AJ!"
"What?! Sorry...I was just saying, they've got to at least be on speaking terms and close to getting back together."
Jacob agreed, "Yeah.."
The next morning, Nick woke up from a shooting pain going up through his neck. He groaned and tried to stretch but only suceeded in falling out of the chair. He heard laughing coming from the bed and glared up at Malia, "Wasn't funny."
The smile dropped from her face and she pulled the comforter back on top of her, "Sorry..it was just--oh nevermind."
"Do you want the shower first?"
"No..I don't have any clothes to change into."
"Oh..me neither.."
"They could of planned this better."
"And they could of chosen the room with TWO beds."
"Yeah...I thought I was in the chair though?"
Nick threw his shirt on from the night before and stood to look in the mirror, trying to fix his hair kind of. "You were...I moved you to the bed and I slept in the chair."
"You didn't have to do that."
"Well I did, so just drop it.," He snapped.
"Ok..Can I have the shower then?"
"You don't have any clothes."
She shrugged and got out of the bed, "I can just wear this again."
"Oh..yeah, sure."
"Ok...I won't be long."
After both had showered, it was back to being silent.
Finally, Malia sighed, "This is getting annoying."
"What?"
"This! This stupid silence.."
"Turn on the tv then damnit."
She did so and stopped on MTV where videos were playing. The latest BSB video came on and Nick groaned, "Turn it."
"Why? I like this video."
"Well I get kinda sick of hearing my own voice day after day after day."
"Maybe I don't."
"Well I do, so turn it off!"
"No!"
"Yes!"
Both, by now, were standing and in each other's faces. Nick glared at her, "You are such a bitch."
She glared back up at him, "You are such a dick."
"Screw you."
"Bite me."
"Where at sweetheart?," He replied snottily with a smirk.
She shoved him backwards, "Egotistical jerk."
He got right back in her face, "Don't touch me ever again."
"Who would want to?!"
"Bitch."
"Asshole."
"You were the one who cheated on me!"
She shoved him again, "And you were the one who jumped to conclusions too soon!"
"Well I didn't exactly plan on catching my girlfriend practically on top of a guy I can't stand!"
"I can't stand him either! You wouldn't let me explain!"
He took a step back and crossed his arms in front of him, "Then explain. We can't exactly go anywhere, now can we?"
"I was coming off stage, someone grabbed me and pulled me into that room. I was then thrown up against the wall and he shoved himself all up on me. He kept telling me to shut up and I kept telling him to get off me, I couldn't get him away from me. He must of heard someone open the door and he kissed me. I tried to get him away but he wouldn't move Nick, he just wouldn't!"
"Why should I believe you?"
She looked at him in confusion, "Why should you believe me? Hmm..let me think Nick! You've only known me for about ten years and you've known OF Jason for about three months. The years of friendship and our relationship and our trust within one another should of been enough for you to believe ME over him. I would never cheat on you Nick and you know that. Within that mind of yours, you know that."
He sat down on the edge of the bed, "You don't know what went through my mind when I saw you...and him."
"What went through your mind?"
"Everything all at once."
"Like?"
He put his head in his hands, "I have such a headache."
"Nick."
"I don't know...I just...I couldn't believe you were kissing him..I mean, of all people to kiss! HIM?! Ugh.."
"Nick!"
"Well it's true..I was just..so hurt..and so confused and so angry..."
"I'm sorry."
"You shouldn't be sorry Malia..I should be, and I am."
She sat down beside him, "I felt so alone when you walked out and called me a bitch and told me never to come near you again."
"I felt so alone when I walked out."
"Soooo..now what?," She asked.
"I don't know."
"We can't go back in time and turn everything around."
"No, but I can go kick Jason's ass even more so. Did he hurt you?"
"No..just surprised me. I tried to like claw him but it didn't work."
"Is that all he did? Kiss you?"
"Yes."
"I should of believed you."
She nodded, "True."
He hadn't looked up at all since the conversation started and suddenly; he had begun to cry. Malia was so surprised, she didn't know what to do. "Nick? Oh geez..don't cry! I don't think I've seen you cry since third grade when you fell off the jungle gym at school and about broke your arm!"
She wrapped her arms around him and he leaned onto her. "Nick..please don't cry, ok? I just wish none of this had happened."
"Which part? Him kissing you or our whole relationship?"
"How can you ask about our relationship Nicky? I loved our relationship. I regret ever meeting Jason and ever getting involved with Bryan. I regret not going after you that night and making you listen to me..and most of all, I regret leaving that night without explaining to anyone."
"I regret not listening to you...I just..I just immediately thought the worst Lia..," his voice had become just above a whisper, "I thought you didn't want me or something. I know our relationship hasn't been easy and I'd just been feeling like I was leaving you out of stuff and then I thought that maybe you'd change your mind about the whole 'coming out' thing and I'm so scared I'd lost you forever. I didn't want to tell anyone but I was so...so..afraid you wouldn't come back and I wouldn't have enough guts to ever go find you."
"Nick...you never left me out of anything and I always wanted to come out about us to the whole world. I was afraid, but I knew we'd get through it and that most of the fans and media would be okay with it. Nick..where do we go from here?"
"I don't know."
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