Mood:  don't ask
Topic: In b/t days
Well this morning is starting out rough. My kid is being a butthead, but what 2 year old isn't a butt.
Well I have alot on my mind right now. I can't stand the fact that now after all that I have been through, I am raising 2 kids on my own. I never knew I would be doing this by myself. I never thought in a million years that on Mothers Day 2005 my would would come crashing down. Im over my ex but I just can't let go of what he did to me, after the way he has treated me for so long. I have grown a thick skin from this, and now im pushing people away. I don't see how after 4 years and 2 children, me slaving EVERY day to please him, he was so quick to throw us out. Well duh!!! He had a girlfriend on the side. How pathetic is that. Guess that's what I get for trying to make a family work, that had no hope. I am so glad that now I get to have a key to my house, I get to talk to other people, I get to go check the mail at the street, I get to spend time with my children, and I get to go places. I just wanted out of that relationship so bad. I was just scared. Well I WAS such a nice person, I let everyone run over me. Well im not scared any more!! I have so much fear, that it angers me. I will make it though. Single or not I will!!!!!!!!!!