I Give Up On Dating

Yeah i have totally given up on the whole dating thing. see jen made me realize something last night. see in life i want a girl like who she used to be. she was great and just the kinda girl i wanna be with. but she told me last night that i was jealous i couldnt get a girl like her. so if i cant get a girl like her.....and shes the kinda girl i want.....why even try anymore. it seems im only happy when im with a cute girl but cute girls dont like ugly guys no matter how nice they are or how good they treat the girls they are with. and no matter what they say everyone is shallow.....im embarassed to be seen with ugly girls. hot girls are embarassed to be seen with guys like me. and since i only wanna be with a girl i find attractive.....and those girls wont even talk to me cause im ugly and poor.....why even try to date anymore. im just gonna stay single and lonely like i have been for years. i think its better this way. besides.....no one wants to be with me. why would they.....i have nothing to offer. im ugly.....shy.....and poor.....who wants a guy like that? i cant think of any girl that would want to be with someone like me.....unless they are extremely fucked in the head or something. and if.....since jen puts it.....i cant get a girl like the one i want to be with.....i refuse to settle for someone im never gonna love fully. if i cant be 100% into the whole relationship its not worth being in it.....and if im not attracted to the girl or are embarassed to be seen with her.....then i wont hook up just to get some. its been 2 years.....not like i cant wait longer ya know. and i told my mom earlier i refuse to date anymore and she blames it on the fact that ive fallen out of the church. she thought i was an athiest and thats not too bad. but today i told her i believed in God and all and she got happy until i told her "i wholeheartedly believe there is a God, and i hate the fucker with all my soul." she started crying and i hung up on her. i'll get into the whole "god is a bastard" issue another session.....for now im just gonna go enjoy being single.