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Diane Truman
Buried deep inside me is a child,
screaming to be understood.
People listen but they don't here.
They look inside but don't see.
I feel like one touch of human
kindness would break me into
a million little pieces.
I need someplace to hide.
Somewhere dark and empty.
Somewhere no one knows me.
I'm so alone.
Alone is a terrible place to be.
I see my soul, black as night.
No hope for what I really am.
Death follows me.
Waiting for me to succumb
to this awful pain.
All around me is desolation.
No one cares.
Every move I make,
I feel I'm drowning deeper
and darker.
To a place that's dark and
empty where I can hide.....
Look past the smile on my
face. If eyes are the window to
our souls then look deeper and
see the anguish. I am tormented
My body weighs a thousand pounds
I can't move. Breathing is
an effort. I feel life seeping
out of me. God promised to
never give me more than I can
bear. He lied. I can't carry
this burden anymore. I'm
sinking deeper in this sand
they call life. The harder I
try to keep my head up, the
harder it sucks me in. I'm
tired of fighting a battle I'm
losing. No one puts a hand out
to save me. Look past the
smile on my face.....
Are you more of a man now
that you've brought me to the
lowest point of my life? Does
making me feel small build
your enormous ego? I have
no defense left. You win.
Is victory sweet? At what
cost? You were larger than
life to me. All the qualities
to be a good man, but inside
your darkness dwells, And all
around you. Like a bottom
feeder you suck the spirit
out of me. You're the great
pretender. You dazzle with your
boyish charm. Who are you?
Do you exist? Everything
I admired about you wasn't real.
You're just the shell of who I
wished you could be. I wish
you'd vanish like the dream I
thought you were....
Diane Truman
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