I grew up with lies
made in blood, masked
by the white face or religion.
my parents didn’t like who
I am, so they lost themselves
in delusions and prayed
for a reincarnate of “little
house on the prairie.”
They didn’t want to face
I’d rather date Adam then
Laura. Instead of facing
their fears, they hid in
the dark caves of denial.
I didn’t fit into the world
they wanted or tried to
create. So who I am was
imagined away. To protect
themselves from the inevitable
they fed me lies of death
and destruction for those
of us who are different.
So I fell further into
myself not letting anyone
in and feeling emptier and
more insecure everyday.
I found momentary peace
in the mind and imaginations
of literary lies
it was an escape from
my reality and my pain
and an adventure into
someone else’s.
as my parents continued
to fight in the name of
Religion. my mind absorbed
Their contradictory teachings
and I Became Blind
to Their dead laws.
I clung to false hope
that god would “change” me
and something far
better was coming
Caught in a whirlpool
of filth and deceit I
Realized I was “DAMNED”
So I left it behind
and have found some
peace with who I am
