Let me take a moment to try and explain....

Dear Dad,

Where am I meant to start?

How does someone introduce one’s self to your own father?

I guess I have to start somewhere, so here goes…

I can only imagine how strange this must be for you to find out you have a daughter on the Internet.

I wish there had been another way but as I am sure you will come to understand with the information I had available this was my only way.

I hope that you have recovered a little from the shock.

I want to reassure you that I am not interested in causing your family or yourself any pain.

In all honesty I think there has been a lifetime of pain already.

I have no idea what must be going through your mind right now.

And I have imagined this moment a hundred times….

I cannot explain why my mother never told you or when she really knew.

All I can say is how sorry I am that this has happened to you.

I only found out a few months ago and I am still unsure of so much!

There have been many moments in my life where I thought I knew my father.

Yet with time this would be proved untrue.

I have often wondered why my life was so different than everybody else’s, truth is each and everyone one of us has a unique life to another.

I wish I could tell you that it is all right if you do not want to meet me.

I would have to accept it obviously but this means so much to me please do not walk away.

I want to feel if only for a moment a sense of understanding of whom I am.

It is hard to explain the pain of not knowing, it is an empty, hollow space deep down in my soul.

For as long as I can remember one way or another my journey has been to find you.

There have been moments that I thought I had found you that my pain had come to an end.

That the answers I have been seeking were so near, yet through every door is just another hallway I need to travel in my search to know you.

You have been my inspiration from a far , you have been a source of strength, hope and light in my life.

Not knowing what path life has thrown out there at you to follow is hard.

I hope with all my heart that life has treated you kind.

I have so many questions that run ramped in my mind. And they all come back to you.

Now that I found you it is hard to know what to say. I'm scared you’ll stand up from your computer and walk the other way.

Please hear in my words, the pain that I feel not being able to know for once in my life you are real.

This is my question, this is my plea, please don’t let me live in the unknown for yet another day..

With love your daughter
Kristin


Before I let you go I would like to dedicate a song to you.
It is a song by Shania Twain & Brian White

**From this moment**...