*oldest at top & newest at bottom* Saturday December 2nd 00 12:11am Well tonight I had alot of fun actually. Me Cameron Daniel and Susan went to the super savers to see The Cell which is might I say a very absolutely astonishing movie. I absolutely fell in love with the characters in the movie. But im not a critic :) I woke up at 9:40am and left with my parents and brother and sister an left to a christmas tree lot where we cut down our own tree and brought it home. its decorated and stuff now. after i came home i started ironing my patches on my new superman backpack. then cameron came over and we left to his aunts house. she was yelling and screaming at daniel, susan, cameron and me for nothing. but then she apoligized so all was okay. we went to daniels for a while and became very bored so we went to the movies and saw the cell. me and cameron had to leave in the middle cause he was sposed to be home by 11 but we lost track of time cause of the movie then he asked what time it was and it was 11:04 so we had to rush home really fast. i hope he doesnt get in trouble. well now here I am doing more work on my website. Thursday December 7th 00 4:41 pm Well my webpage was deleted so now it has a new address and Im sorry for any problems it may have caused you such as if, you visited my old site and your computer froze up. Thats part of the whole deleting process. I know how that goes. Well Im actually doing pretty good, but the fact that marc (moms husband) said we need to talk. whatever that means. so i dont know what i did and I dont know if im going to be grounded or what not. So if I dont update anything for a while you know why. I dont really have much to say. im trying really hard in school but it seems I j ust cant cut it. i think im about to break loose of everything again. well i dont know how to word my feelings. heather byam is a selfish slut. and thats all. Friday December 8 00 12:15am well tonight i went to buffalo it was very boring. but all in all i had fun. tomorrow im going to the mall to get some 10 or 12 gauges to finally stretch my ears. im only going to 8 gauge because well im a c hick and i guess chicks dont look right with huge plugs in there ears. i went to the mall the other day and the stupidest thing was there, you ever seen those magnetic earings? well they have magnetic plugs magnetic lebrets and its just oh grrr. its stupid. im very tired right now. indeed im grounded but marcs out of town and i did my end of the deal with mom so i can so stuff. i dont have much to say and im real tired so im going to go to bed now. goodnight Saturday December 9 00 3:06 pm Well today I went a bought christmas presents for lydia me and cameron. i tried to find a gloworm for charlie but KB was out of them. i got a 8 gauge plug for my ear. Just one which sucks they didny have two. But indian weavings doesnt sell plugs anymore I stuck the 8 through my ear so i went from a 20 to a 14 to an 8 i take back what I said about only going to an 8 because 8's arent even big so im going to go bigger. cameron is grounded I think but he said hes stopping by here after work which is between 4:40 and 6:30 I got lydia this really neat ring thats blue and silver and its really prety. my mom bought cameron this big thing but i cant say what it is because you know he sorta reads this. yeah. have you ever seen the led zepplin shirt that has a the purple angel that glows yellow? well i bought him that lighter today exept its more greenish. its prettier then the shirt I think. hes going to be suprised when my mom gives him his present. he probably actually thinks its something cool. boy does he have something else coming. well im running out of things to say. for my friends that want to buy presents for me well.....i want gauges. i need to stretch my ears i actually need 1 8 gauge plug. but other then that you guys could probably team up and buy 1 earing each and give it to me together as a pair. i need 10's and 12's plugs prefrebaly (i spelled that wrong) i dont like large gauge hoops cause they are too big. I also need a clear barbell. 16 or 14 gauge. uv reactive are neat for earings. well there you guys go. I can never get enough earings. :) email me and let me know what you want. toodles Wensday December 20 00 8:51 PM Well HI! Long time since I wrote in here. I was grounded for about a week and stuff for my grades. But now im keeping caught up in school and Ive turned in all my assigments. BUT our internet was temporarily terminated. But all is good....for now. I was thinking and if andy were to die. I would go to his funeral. I would look at him and I dont think I would cry because I would block it out. I would think about how he hurt me and how I hurt him. But I would always remember that I have something of his. I dont even think about him anymore. someone will say andy and it wont even phase me its such a wonderful feeling. I guess if I could feel this way about andy now then I suppose someday if cameron were to leave me i could here his name and it wouldnt phase me but I mean cameron is alot different me and him share so many memories together everyday. I think he is the one for me. Hes the best I know. He can always make me smile. He can always make me laugh but there are things that I would like to change about him. kara=anti-descrimination cameron=niggers-kikes-dykes-fags-spicks and all so much more. You all should know what Im talking about if you know him. It bothers me but Im just so used to it that it just blows over me unless its one of my friends then I get mad. also....cameron doesnt really know how to control his anger and its scary because i love him with all my heart and i know he loves me but jesus he doesnt need to push me around all the time. well i dont really have much to say. hopefully tomorrow I will update my poemz and storeez. yep yep ta ta for now. Thursday December 21st 00 12:47 AM Well this is going to be short because Im tired. Im finally on christmas vacation and Im glad. Tomorrow I'll be home all day so I will update my poemz and storeez. I havent gotten around to it obviously. I talked to doug tonight hes such an asshole. I really do hate him. I dont really have plans tomorrow I need to go christmas shopping so Im thinking Ill catch a bus out to the mall or something and buy muh daddy a present. Im yawning so terribly bad and I wish I could think of more to write but Im so tired and I son think there is anything to write. Well have a good night, Sweet Dreamz fRIDAY dECEMBER 22 00 7:23 pm WELL IM SITTING HERE TALKING TO SUSAN WONDERING WHERE ARE BOYFRIENDS ARE. SO ME AND SUSAN ARE GOING OUT. BECAUSE ARE PPL ARE TOGETHER RIGHT NOW SOMEHERE WITHOUT US. BEING DUMB. YEP YEP. drugz r bad! so im bored and there out having fun while me and suzi continue to wait for them. we have agreed to deprive them of sex for 2 weeks. that will show them. tonight is charlies birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLI! WE LOVE YOU. well im fighting with cameron he just got to susans oh i had to work till 7 blah blah blah its 7:40 right im going to call his work. alright he did get off work at 7 but that was 40 minutes ago. i dont know what to do. Im pissed but I dont have a reason to be because I guess that wa sonly 40 minutes ago but it still makes me mad that it took him so long and it really makes me mad that he didnt come over here first and he didnt go home cause now he still needs. we just lost about 2 hours of time. they are doing drugs which makes me mad and i bet cameron is on his way over here so Im going to go. when i come home tonight i will let you know what happend. bye Saturday December 23rd 00 12:22 PM Sorry I didnt get to write last night but I came home and I was just tired. I went to buffalo last night and it was charlies birthday. She gave me a blue and gray elephant. Its name is Quadapuss and no it does not have four pussys okay nickle you hear me? she kept saying thats what it ment. Its one of my favoritest presents ever, not as great as cameron though. Hes so special to me. I think about him all the time. I want to be with him forever and ever and ever and ever. He said we cant have 20 kids. But he said we can have 2 I want to have 2 I try to have just one for like 6 months but yeah. Well Im going to go now because I want to and I dont have anything else left to say tomorrow is christcmads and I wish you all a happy christmas even though I dont like it. Best wishes Saturday December 23rd 00 11:18 PM Well I would like everybody to know that I love Cameron West Anderson very much and I wont ever cheat on him again. I love him very much I realized why I cheated on him and as much as I hate you doug I would like to thank you for helping me realize to never cheat on cameron because I wont get anything out of it pleasurewise or emotionalwise. Its not worth risking everything I have worked for just for some pathetic stuck up singer that has an ego 1,000,000 times larger then his brain to moan and groan at me for 3 minutes. Anyways-----> Back to the real source Of news I stayed here tonight bored out of my mind. but i talked to cameron and actually let out some feelings I have never shared before. I hope he took them to heart because I really did mean what I said. And I talked to my good friend mike today. hes at his moms house so he got online and it was so great to hear from him i about had a heart attack when his name was on my buddy list. I was so happy. I dont have much to say cause all my plans got ruined. ashton called me tonight and shes like are you on the other line. me-uhh yeah. her- oh okay nevermind. me-why? her-oh i just wanted to know if you wanted to do something tonight but nevermind. me-okay whatever, ~click~ Yeah thats effort ashton, shows how much you wanted to do something with me considering you didnt even bother asking. you merely implied it. and you should know me alot better that im not going to just jump out and ask and answer the questions you have all myself. if you want to do something why dont you make a suggestion instead of saying nevermind, you know me and cameron both sat at home all night im pretty damn sure we could have went to the movie or something but you know. nice effort. well im going to go now because i have to help cameron with something. sweet dreams Sunday December 23rd 00 10:35 PM Christmas Eve well I cant write much because my parents are bugging me to get out of the living room so that "santa" can put presents. but i got some christmas presents early around the fur a tool shirt a korn shirt *lifeispeachy* some lights, 2 earings, a porclean doll *yank yank* AN ENGAGEMENT RING!!!!!!!! and so on. I love cameron so much. well tonight some punk punched camerons moms car window. i hate stupid ppl. i gave cameron 20$ to best buy a slipknot shirt and a led zeppling flag. and umm of course, ME!!!! yeah well i guess i had better get going. i will write more tomorrow. Good Night Monday December 24th 00 11:32 PM Christmas MERRY BIRTHDAY!!!!! IM talking to mike. hes a really great guy. He sent me a picture to sacrifice to my webpage oh yeah! Well i got pink fluffy slippers. an easle paint canvas's clothes dreamcast pen flashlight yeah. I really want to meet mike hes so neato. me and mike friends forever! i cant write all my true feeligns in here because people read this and some things you have to have for yourself. but heres something ill share, to everyone who doubts me a nd cameron, you may doubt us and you may think that we arent going to last and i dont hate you because you are entitled to your own opinion. i love cameron very much and i have known that since before we ever went out. he makes me happier then anyone ever could he takes care of me loves me cherishes me, and even though hes a dick quite often hes still very loving and caring which makes up for the mean days. well cameron is almost everything to me i think of him when i wake up and when i go to sleep i tink of him thrughout the day and well you get the point. IM SO IN LOVE W/HIM!!! Happy Holidays Friday December 29th 00 3:08PM Well tonight im staying home with cameron to watch my little brother and sister. This christmas vacation sucked. I did nothing fun. I used to have fun but no not now. I really want to go t the loft. Or peabodies or soemthing. Interact with people who didnt grow up in buffalo iowa. i went to qcad for like 5 minutes the other night. i think maybe two weeks ago i dont know nevermind. i g2g sledding but i think that was before we got out for school. so yeah this week has sucked. camerons car broke down. he was supposed to have it back today. I hate going to buffalo. Its so boring. T heres nothing to do. I like going to the loft every once in a while. I like seeing local bands once in a while, I know susan does too. I like Matt James Angie and all them alot better then nickle sady shooby and brett. I feel more comfortable around buffalo people but they get annoying. Cameron and Daniel dont like being in public places. which is a complete bore. I tink I would have much rather been in school this whole week then bored out of my mind every single day. This is just so boring. I like not having school and stuff. Ive been paranoid all week though. Even though I turned in all my assigments in my classes Im still scared Im going to fail classes. There are 4 days of the new quarter when we go back. I think for those 4 days im going to go to early bird gym. I will have gym before school and detentions after school. Ill need to serve two detentions eachday before I get in school cause i cant have in school. I have too many absences next quarter im not going to have to worry about falling behind cause ill just stay up at the front get orginized you know? well im going to go take a nap or something before I get disturbed again byt susan or cameron or whatever. Luck to You
