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Only the Children Suffer

I remember a time of peace and happiness
a sharing of smiles and laughter
the comfort in the knowledge of love.

I also remember a time of sorrow and tears
a shattering of the soul from the lies and deceit
the cold and frail existence that I have now become.

Silence is my comfort, amidst all the tears
there is too much hurt now for all of this to be easy
the pain, the sorrow and constant sadness,
will always be a reminder of a child's innocence.
Punishment

So this is what was meant to be . . .
This vast emptiness yawning before me.
Fixated I stand . . . eyes locked in dismay
The memories of a time before. . . looking at the bay.

So this is what was meant to be . . .
This eternal blackness I behold before me.
Why have I been discarded without reason or rhyme?
How can I be punished when I didn't commit the crime?

So this is what was meant to be . . .
This infernal nothingness that engulfs and embraces me.
I resign to the notion that I am about to die
Letting the void caress me . . . I can no longer cry.


His Lies

Late at night he tries to cry alone,
In shadows and darkness,
No one will see his tears.
Feel his hurt.
No one will have to understand.

But as morning returns,
He will hide in silence
And again smile though little lies
He tells himself
To keep from the edge.


Time

I always go early
Am never late
The answer is the same
Dont know why I wait

I sit and I listen
to the silence all around
Knowing the answer
before the clock sounds

Each and every time
it only takes an hour
but it seems like forever
she wields too much power

To keep him from me, the way she has
Sends the message clearly
Who and why is she hurting
To me, it is both of us, completely.


Tears

The tears came today
silence broken by sobs of anguish and hopelessness
The hopes and dreams
destroyed by a single act of selfishness,
have also crushed the spirit in me


Hope and trust is broken, I find myself unwinding down the path of self destruction, where a descent into the abyss is imminent. In the abyss lies hopelessness, a state of constant despair ending only in the wretched grips of time. It is there a new hope is born spawning the desire for the precious arms of death's sweet serenity. Death is the only exit, the final freedom from hopelessness. I don't want to go there, this is not the answer.
Why
Do you ever just want to be alone
To light a candle and let yourself go
Scared to live each coming day
Wanting to leave.........Having to stay


You ask me again what's wrong with me.
You ask me again why I can't shake it off.
You tell me again that I'm not trying


But do you know what it's like
To be afraid of life
To be trapped in the hell of your own mind
To feel less than nothing?


For a past lost
A present destroyed
And a future soon to fall to pieces
Goodbye
It's time for saying good-bye
Please don't shed your tears and cry,
I have done all I could
Lived as I should,


Why am I being punished...
I've only ever tried to do right
Still the pain won't go away
My emotions have lead me astray,


My problems I have tried to mend
But this sorrow must come to an end,
I'm sorry to leave you all wondering why
It's time for me to say good-bye.


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