Well, I have a stalker I say... Here's the story, and yes Jay, now you're famous and got my attention. It all started one day when I got an instant message (aol) by a Zinghigh16 saying something like "check your email".. I was like.. who is this? No reply. okay.. freaky. I check my mail... nothing. I got a few more encounters with this person.. I constantly and peristently asked for identification. This person avoided that subject and did not answer. So.. I just figured, great.. I have a stalker. Today however, this Zinghigh16 person wrote in my guestbook. They gave the name "Jay." okay....that means nothing. I have the memory of a goldfish.. about 13 seconds.. hahaha.. anyway, here's what they wrote:
hmm not bad, your site is setting up nicely. could use some links on the end of your page to go back. as some would say this helps the world go round. well sweet cheeks, iyour life is so full of people who love you and ones who dont want your love or lost it is a shame you deserve more. You make off no one wants you and dont know why. Seems you shut off people that do really care. Maybe your scared of what you might get out of it. but then hunny cakes theres me i'll love ya till the earths end. enjoy college. peace out A little shady don't you think? Why won't he just tell me who he is for pete sakes if he is for real... to me this could be just some stupid kid who is bored and doesn't have anything else better to do but screw with people. Is this some sick joke? I know of someone who pulled this kind of crap. I think her name is Heather.. she is stupid. She claimed to be in my english class (when I was just starting out) and I believed her. She asked what assignments she missed and I told her. She came on as a girl named Jen. Come to find out its this idiot girl that my friend knows that just decided to mess with me. That's such bullcrap. Don't play stupid crap like that. As Wakana would call it, Baka! Anyway, off on a new subject... I was freaking out this morning... I woke up....after hitting my alarm about 5 times and got in the shower... as I was in there I always just think about things.. like what my day will be like, or something that happened the other day... i dunno. .stuff.. and then all of a sudden a question popped into my head: DID I TAKE MY PAXIL LAST NIGHT? OH FRICK! I couldnt remember taking it. And for all you psychos and anxiety ridden people, you know that you can't just miss a dose of Paxil... you get majorly sick and throw up and stuff....I panicked. I just couldnt remember.. (again goldfish memory) I tried calling my mom to see if it would be okay to take a double dose just in case i did take it last night. I couldn't get ahold of her. I ended up calling the nearest pharmacy and asked. The girl over the phone said: 10mg? Yeah.. you should be okay. So, I took one and went to school. I did get sick to my stomach pretty darn badly and got headaches..though... I've had headaches for about 3 months now so I don't know if that counts. I'm not dead yet. However, I must remember-- TAKE MEDICINE! Wakana didn't want to leave me.. she was so afraid about the whole medicine thing.. I had to convince her I would be alright so she can go eat and get to class. She is such an awesome friend. You can tell she's not faking. She really does get concerned and cares about you. I did make it through the day just fine. Funny little thing happened today. I had my Artist Book class and the teacher is very... uhm.. bubbly. I guess.. and.. we were going around the room saying a little about ourself like what experience we have, what mediums we're into.. etc. The first girl started talkin about what she's into. All of a sudden my teacher says: Can you repeat that? I spaced out for a second. hahaha I said to him: "Way to be honest!" hahaha.. that was just so great. I teacher admitted that he spaced out. How awesome is that? I love my intro to computer animation class. You get so sucked into and the good news is my friend Jazz is now in the class! Yea! I created this cave shelter thing and I am making this animation where bird poop falls from the sky and lands on the side of the roof and the whole structure collapses because of it. .. It's a work in progress... "put that thing back where it came from or so help me!!" haha (thats from Monsters Inc.) "She's out of our hands!!!!" hahaha anyway, off topic..
Anyway, yeah.. Doc is ignoring me... You do what a guy wants and they ignore ya... what can ya do? I gave him my heart, he denied it.. so I took it away and now he like hates me or something. What was I suppose to do? Me liking him so much only hurt me. So i told him, okay- I'll be your friend, strictly a friend. And now he won't talk to me. What did I do wrong? It saddens me. I value Doc's friendship and I thought he valued mine. Oh well, I tried my hardest and it wasn't good enough. Do guys take pleasure in making a girl cry? Just curious...... I should be doing my History of Photography reading.. soo.. Itte kimasu! (which means I'm leaving, see you later) -Tired of being stalked Lex
