Oh well, other than that, I am going to pick up glasses tomorrow, one of my surgeries screwed up my right eye, so now I gotta wear glasses, but they are cute! ;) lol

Also have to go see my probation officer tomorrow..yay, hope no drug test, lol. And I'm hoping that I'll be able to take a trip up to Virginia to surprise Jason, but I don't know, depends on how I feel about the whole situation in the morning!

I went bowling last week for the first time in like 10 years, it was so much fun, and I think I'll go at least once a week now. I've been spending lots of time at the ballpark here, its a hang out spot for everyone. And I've also been hitting up this club (it's a black club, but like 5 white people go..and I'm one of them...) almost every night too.

Well, I'm alive and kicking, and gotta go shower and get some much needed rest! Take care!



April 30, 2003-10:45am: So much for that update for my site huh? lol, Things came up but I'll get it done in a few days hopefully. Saturday night I didn't go to bed until late late late, and Jason wakes me up at 10:00am. I wanted to hang up, lol, but didn't, and after that phone call, in about 30 minutes I was packed and headed to Virginia to see him! That's the 3rd unplanned trip I have taken to see him...getting rather annoying now! So I came back home Monday.

Tuesday I had an appt. with the eye doctor (because after one of my surgeries, my right eye was fucked up where I almost couldnt see at all)...he said my eye has made remarkable improvement, which of course I can tell, cause I can see better again. On May 13th though, I gotta get glasses...can't wear contacts. Oh well, as long as they are cute! lol

Today is Wednesday, I just got up, I'm drinking a bottle of water and listening to an unreleased track from 50Cent and Eminem. This afternoon, IF the weather stays nice,which I doubt it will, cause it never does, I'm going to the baseball park and play some softball with lots of folks. The park opens tomorrow for real games...which I won't be going to, because I don't like most of the people there. Other than that, I think I'll be sleeping a lot tonight, I need to get caught up.

Well, I gotta get going, need a shower and gotta call...well...you take a guess ;)



April 26,2003-1:00am: Got home about 30 minutes ago, I'm sorta fucked up...took some Triple C's, feeling it a lil bit now. A few friends will be here in about 20 minutes after they get food and gas. Who knows what this night will bring. Wayne (this guy who annoys the hell out of me) kept calling me tonight, I tell him to leave me alone, but he just won't quit. *Sigh*

On another note, I think I cracked a bone in my foot, because it hurts pretty bad. No point in going to the doc for that tho, cost money and they can't do anything about it, just say "Oh, you need to stay off it as much as possible."

I got Linkin Park's new CD finally...I'm loving it, so between them and 50 Cent...my cd player's haven't had much of a break. My music tastes varies so much, a couple of years ago, I would probably have not listened to either very much. Maybe it's old age creeping in?!?! :O ;) lol....I'll be 21 in July, YIKES! I am feeling old, lol. But yeah...anyway, I'm going to go, I'm starting to get babbly, and nothing good ever comes out of that. So take care, and this weekend I should be having some major updating on my site. :)



April 23,2003-3:19pm: Got home around 11:30 last night, talked to Jason for about an hour or a little longer. Found the present I want to get him for his birthday, then went to bed and slept for 12 hours. I feel so refreshed now. I have things to do, like unpack and go mail some shit off, so I'm outta here, but I'll post later.



April 22,2003-6:16am(really 7:16am): Well I'm leaving Indianapolis today and heading back home. Gonna miss this place. Not going to miss how much money I spend...I see something Jason would like on me, and BAM, I buy it. *sigh* I'm going to see him in 2 weeks or so. Glad he's only a 2-2 1/2 hour drive away. His birthday is in June (the 27th) and he likes pigs (obviously, Look at me, LOL), so I bought him this stuffed pig that has a birthday hat on and one of them things that roll out when you blow it, and it sings. It's so cute. I'm still in the process of thinking what to get him...he likes things with flames on it, so if anyone has an idea...feel free to let me know! ;) lol I'm trying to not like the boy, but dang it...I don't know what is going on...we fuss all the time, but there is just something about him that makes me stick around. Okay, enough babbling for now, I gotta go, gotta start packing and then gotta say bye to little Abby, I'm gonna miss that little girl when I leave!!! WAHHHHHH.... anyway...bye!



April 20,2003-2:29am(really 3:39 EST): The Avril Lavigne concert was great. I was so pumped during it...not to mention Simple Plan was there too, wow <3!!! gob was too, it was just an amazing concert, really high energy...was right at the stage on the floor....it was great. Almost got into a fight with this girl there, she put her sweatshirt over the railing, and then left it, and when she came back to get it, she asked the security guard where it was, and he was like "Huh?" and she said "where is my gray sweatshirt i had over there"..and he's like "well, i just gave it to someone who said it was their's"...then she gets all puffy and then turns back around and says "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO WITH IT MAN?!" and he's like "i just told you"...then she starts bitching...so i said "well, you shouldn't have put it over there anyway"...and she said "excuse me bitch?" and i said "you need to quit bitching at him, how was he supposed to know...you are old enough to have common sense enough to not put it over there and expect it to stay" and then she says something really smart, and turns around...so i say "say that to my face" and of course she doesnt...so then i grab her and spin her around and get in her face and tell her to say it in my face and she walks away and then says "fucking fat cow with the retard face" and i bust out laughing and said "yeah, i'm fat, and yeah my face looks different, but guess what...my face isn't over there bitch"...and she gets mad and stomps away...it was so funny, i thought the security guard was gonna die laughing.

Anyway, its Easter, so HAPPY EASTER!!!! I went to Kings Island (amusement park in Ohio) earlier...and OMG, it was so much fun, except now I'm sunburned, ughhh!!!

Well I have to get up pretty early so I'm going to bed. Jason and I fought again tonight...*sigh*...sometimes I wonder if its worth it...but I love him, so I try to stick it out...anyway, NIGHT!



April 17,2003-1:33am(really 2:33 EST): Well, it has been a lonnnnngggggg day...shopping, shopping, and more shopping!!! We also went to the tattoo place, and I'm looking at this very pretty butterfly that I want...should i?????? lol....

We went to see House of 1000 Corpses....ya know, the Rob Zombie flick...OMG...soooooooo freaky!!! It was awesome, but I love those types of movies anyway. I recommend it, but ya need a good stomach, and mine is huge, so I'm good!! ;) lol...

Tonight, we are going to see Avril Lavigne in concert, hope its good. Then Friday we are going to the zoo, cause I love animals, and she said they have a nice zoo. Saturday, more shopping!!! and that night we are going to a club and then to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I am having so much fun here...I dont wanna go home Tuesday!!! lol

Barbara has the cutest little 7 year old girl...she's so smart and so polite...yet such a little devil!!! lol

Anyway, this is the earliest I have been to bed in such a long long time...but I'm tired...so, nighty night! lol



April 16,2003-11:09am(really 12:09 EST): My first flight went really well, I was pleasantly surprised, lol. The connecting flight only lasted like 20 minutes, lol...that was cool too, except I was in the plane longer than that waiting for another plane to leave our gate, which was annoying, but anywho...

We are going shopping so I'm out...woohoo! ;) lol...



April 15,2003-9:46am: Okay...wow, my first flight, I'm nervous and excited, and packed and ready to go!!! lol...So I'm out...I'm running late now....yikes!!! I'll be posting when I'm there...



April 13, 2003-7:32pm: I was thinking earlier today about stupid immature folks, cause I know so many, lol. And then I remembered about a month ago, I was up in Virginia visiting my friend Jason, and we were riding around, and these 3 guys followed us making faces and taking pictures of me. So I simply got out of the car, and told them if I had a camera, I would take pictures of them too, but then they sped off. Silly fools can't even say anything to my face. Gotta love people like that *rolls eyes*...freaking cowards!

Of course, I am sorta the type of person who doesn't mind getting into arguements, lol...because usually the other person is really dumb. On another note, I have had quite a frustrating day...cried for about 8 hours straight talking to one person...of course it was a guy. Ohhhhhhh the power of males! lol ;) But its all worked out now so I feel lots better. The guy was Jason who I mentioned above...but anywho...

I gotta start packing for my trip to Indiana...if I don't start soon I know I will forget something by the time to go (Tuesday)...it's my first time flying, I'm a little freaked, lol, not sure what to expect.

Ok, my friend, Kim, is here, so I gotta bounce...we are going out tonight to party or something, there is no telling! lol



April 12,2003-6:48pm: I'm trying my hand at making webpages before I pay for it! lol, After getting used to HTML and all that good stuff, it got a lot easier. It's something that I wanted to do for a while, just never had the patience to sit down and accomplish it, but today I made myself.

I've been sick for the past week, which really sucks, so I haven't done much of anything. I'm flying for the first time on Tuesday, and I'm excited about that. I'm going out to Indiana to visit my friend Barbara. Should be a blast, just hope she and I both are feeling good!!!

Okay, I'm about to give a shout out to Toya, because well...after visiting her page so often, I realized that you need to be secure with yourself and love yourself. It's unbelievable how many fakers she has...personally, I had rather be ME than hide being someone else's face. I mean seriously...what if you ever wanted to meet the people?!?!? I'm definately not all that, nor do I try to be, if people don't like me for me, then I don't care. My personality is what matters to me! Even though Toya is gorgeous (she's a model =O), she still wants people to like her for her and not just her looks!!! But anyway, I could ramble forever, but I have to go now.

Take care and I hope that you come back and visit my site often! :)