Do you cut yourself with knives, razor blades, broken glass, needles,
nails, paper clips, pins, scissors, tacks, anything you can get your
hands on? Do you bang your head against walls? Punch walls till your
hand goes all bruised and bloody? Do you throw yourself through panes of
glass? Do you ever set you hair and/or skin on fire? Do you swallow
batteries so they'll open up inside you, burning your organs with
battery acid? Do you swallow broken glass, razor blades or needles? Do
you ever hit your self with blunt objects? Do you punch yourself in the
stomach, legs, head? Do you try to break your own bones? Expose your
body to extreme weather conditions without wearing protective clothing
so you'll get frostbite or sunburn or chills and fevers? Stare directly
into the sun until it nearly blinds you? Do you pull out your hair? Bite
or scratch yourself bloody? Do you ever feel extremely anxious and/or
numb to the world for periods of time until you hurt your body to break
out of it, to feel alive, to feel anything at all? Do you interfere with
the healing of your wounds? Do you wear turtlenecks and long sleeves to
hide the evidence?
- RazorBlade
If you do, YOU AREN'T the only one.
1.9 million Americans do these things, most of
them reapeatedly, some even for years at a time.
These people are NOT crazy or
suicidal, although a third of them expect
to die within five years. They suffer
from what is called Deliberate
Self Harm Syndrome and
call themselves cutters.
- Razor Blade
Whether or not you are a cutter read on:
Cutters
By CuTTiNg-BlAdE
Imagine yourself under a lot of mental pain. Stuffing your angers, anxieties and other
emotions deep inside of you, as we (the cutters) do. All this putting you in a state of severe
Depression or Numbness. Wanting to stop the numbness or release your emotions you grab a
razor blade and start making several straight lines on your arm. This is what cutting is. Simply put ,
its a coping mechanism.
But wait, you may be thinking how could someone do this to themselves? The answer is quite
simple. We cut to 'feel' pain when we feel 'numb' or to release our emotions that we stuff inside.
Most of us also cut to see blood, the sight of blood makes us feel 'alive' again. We refer to
ourselves as SIers (SI=Self Injury) or cutters and we use the terms 'SI' or cut as verbs. For
example: "I feel like cutting (SIing) today." or "How many times did you cut (SI) today?".
Now you ask why would someone want to harm themselves? Cutting in theory is no different then
smoking, drinking, or doing drugs. These three activities have 2 things in common: they are all self
harming and very addictive. Cutting too fits these two criteria but differs in the sense that it's
viewed as a taboo subject. Because of this stigma we are viewed as being 'freaks' or mentally
insane by the ignorant. We simply are normal people going through tremendous stress and pain.
Cutting takes or minds off the pain we feel, and calms us when we think were losing control of our
selves.
There are several misconceptions related to cutting. One very common one is that we're suicidal.
We cut because we like the way it makes us 'feel', not because we want to end our lives. If
anything, cutting makes us want to live another day. This aspect of cutting is too difficult for
non-cutters to understand. Another misconception, as mentioned earlier, is that we're insane; this
too is not true. People may also think cutters do it for attention, but we are not looking for
attention, at least not in that way. Besides, would you harm yourself, just to get attention? Next
others believe it's Borderline Personality Disoder (BPD). But cutting is non-diagnosable, its a way
of coping with inexpressible feelings and emotions. Finally others believe its acts of masochism. We
are already in severe mental pain (or feel numb because of it) so then why would people believe we
like to feel pain?
Cutting effects people of all ages, races, and genders. In fact, you may know a cutter and not even
know it because we're also good hiders. When we cut we usually do it alone, usually in isolation.
We may get the urge to cut once a month or several times a day. For most of us this is usually
directly related to how depressed or anxious we feel at that time. The more depressed or anxious
we feel the higher the urge to cut. We refer to our 'tools' as weapons and we may use anything
sharp to cut with although most of us prefer razor blades or scissors, and in a pinch we'll even
improvise. Finally some of us even carry a razor blade or other weapon onourselves, just in case
the urge hits us.
Do you suspect or know someone who is a cutter? If so here are some things you can do to help.
First ask them, Did you, or are you thinking of hurting your self? (Its ok to ask.) Second, never ask
to see the injuries, or point them out if they are visible. This may increase there feelings of low
self-esteem and self hate. (Most cutters still feel low after cutting.) If their injuries require medical
attention they will let you know. Third talk to them. Let them know that you're there for them.
Comfort them. Ask if you can do anything for them. By talking to them they can release their
feelings in a much healthier way. Finally never say any remarks like "Think you're the only one with
problems?" or, "Snap out of it, its all in you'r mind." Remarks like these may upset the cutter in
there time of need.