09-16-00 Saturday


~I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me.~

I was up until 4am instant messaging with Alanna and Dan. So I feel enlightened. It was...crazy. I had started to update the journal. But I was talking to Alanna and Dan, and also Jen on ICQ. Something happened, and I closed out the angelfire screen. (stupid mistake) It was late, so I was having a bit of trouble typing anyhow. After a certain hour, the keys just blur together, and my fingers feel all big and clumsy. So I chatted with Dan about his new DJ job...more on that later. His cousin/roommate Rob, got on-line while Dan was taking a bathroom break. He asked me out?!?! I thought that was odd. But it's a policy of mine I suppose...to know someone a little before dating. Because I've seen what blind dates do. I'd rather know someone and be comfortable with them first. So I accosted him for that. Which wasn't the nicest thing to do. But for Pete's sake...he doesn't have a clue about me. And more importantly, I don't know a thing about him. Moving on...My neck hurts, and my back aches. My mother said I had a fever yesterday. She did the infamous mom thing...puts the back of her hand on my forehead, looks at my face and says I look "flushed". It's been so cold the past few days. I had jeans, a long sleeved shirt, and socks on. Curled up on the couch watching tv most of the day. BLAH

~Open up your eyes~

Nicole called last night to see if I was going to go to the coffee house. I didn't feel good, and I looked like poo. It was definitely a bad hair day (I had my stocking hat on most of the day) and for some reason, my skin decided to turn against me. "hey let's make Laura feel worse and pop out in bright red splotches" You KNOW it's a bad day when not only do you feel like crap, but you look like it too. So I said no, I didn't want to go. She hassled me about it for awhile. But I said no. Maybe other people don't care about what I look like, but I do...and maybe that's vain. But everyone is to an extent.

~Well you got your reasons, and you've got your lies, and you've got your manipulations. They cut me down to size.~

I got up and listened to Dan's radio show. He's a DJ at 94.9 The Buzz. It's an Ada station. The music was pretty good. He played No Doubt (I'm proud). His show is rock based. (It's Dan...what do we expect?) I'm sure his commentary will get better once he's there for awhile. It was a little dull. "Hey this is Danny at 94.9 The Buzz. Next up we've got Metallica with I disappear, and Ozzy with Crazy Train." A little boring. But it'll get better...he just needs some experience. He's got a good radio voice. So ya. Listen to Dan. (if not for him...then for the music. Exceptionally good if you're a rock fan.) I'm not sure when the show is...I do know it's Saturday at noon. But I don't know if it's any other time. I'll ask him. After the show, I went in to take a shower...got dressed...actually did something with my hair. And I'm laying off of the make-up for a few days...just until this gets a little better. I've always hated make-up. But I wear it anyway. Not sure why. It's a chick thing. But other than that...I've done a whole lotta nothin' today. I need to make a trip to the store. I'm out of shampoo...so I better get to it.

~everything that's good is gone~


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