10-07-00 Saturday

~I don't want to fall in love. But you're makin' me. Let me up I've had enough. Oh you're breakin' me.~

Three is the magic number...ok...that was random. I was trying to think of a good way to start this entry...and I thought about a sigh...but that wasn't quite right. I thought about a giggle. But it doesn't fit. There are no words to describe today. I worked...and I thought this weekend was going to be just absolutely terrible. Cause I had to work...and Nicole wanted me to go to this family "halloween" thing. (her family...) But I went into work this morning...and it was just Kim and me. I got her laughing. She's always in such a bad mood...so I grabbed these fake-hair ponytail holder thingys that we got in the other day, and since my hair is far too short to use one in...I put them around my ears. She cracked up. She always sticks me in the fromt of the store...and we're having this "Rockin' Weekend Sale" So I get to tell everyone about it, and give them a nifty little flyer. That's the highlight of my day. (kidding) No really. It's not so bad. Even though standing up front can turn out to be a hassle sometimes. Literally a hassle. Guys walking past in the hall will do the little head nod thing. Some will even ask me how I am. One guy, on his way out of the store looked directly at me...leaned over to his friend and said, "mmm mmm I'd like to get a piece of that". So uh huh...hassle. There's this one mall security guy...named Fred. I went to middle school with him. I don't think he remembers me...but he came in the store the other day, and started giving me lines.
"I recognize you from somewhere"
"Ya, we went to middle school together. FRED"
"right right. So do you know where all the parties are tonight?"
"uh, I don't party"
"really? So uh, how's your kid?"
"Excuse me??? I don't have a kid"
"oh...it's Laurie right?"
"no...Laura."
"ya, I knew that."
He came back later...and told me that if I ever wanted to go get a drink with him...and I said, "I don't drink." So he's like, "you know...I meant orange juice." Whatever. Wait until Alexandria hears about this. I should have given her a call today. She knows him. She's the one who told me he was mall security.

~I'm missin' your love.~

So Kim left, and I was stuck with Kellie, and Tiffany. It wouldn't bother me so much...I don't know. They're ok. Kellie wasn't so cool at first. But she's alright now. I don't know Tiffany very well. She's Dan's cousin. (I REALLY don't want to talk about Dan right now) So Kellie let me go on break, and I headed across the hall to see if Laurie might be able to come along...but she couldn't...so I decided I'd go see if Chris was working. (tsk tsk) I went down there...Looked around...and didn't see him. I was quite disappointed. But then I thought about it. I've been a bit ridiculous. I shouldn't go down there...and look for him. It's silly. So I went to Lerner, and bought myself a new outfit. (hey, it made me feel better) How cliche. Girl shops when feeling sorry for herself. Anyhow, I went back to work. Dawdled around...moped...folded some shirts. Greeted half a million people.

~You promise me through thick and thin~

So I'm standing up front...staring into outer space, and I did a double-take...because I thought I saw Chris. Well, I did. He was looking into the store...and didn't see me standing almost right in front of him. I know...I got a huge smile on my face. And I said, "Chris!" He looks at me, walks in...and says, "I was looking for you." (more grins...face turns 3 shades of red)
"you came to visit me???"
"ya, I have like 10 minutes to find a pair of shoes too...(there's a shoe store across the hall)"
"Oh my gosh...it's been a rough day...gimme a hug."
and he did...I was shocked.
After that...I remember little to none of the conversation. I was so excited...and happy that he stopped in to see me. I was blushing and grinning...and I've never done that before. He hugged me. In his khaki pants...and dress shirt. He's so adorable. And yes. He hugged me. He was in a bit of a hurry. Told me it was his last day...cause he's taking a job on campus. I said something like, "too bad I can't stalk you anymore" he told me he'd see me on Tuesday probably. And I can't wait 'til then. Why am I all sunshine and roses? Why am I all flustered and surprised? He's a nice person. This doesn't mean anything special. But I found it quite lovely that I was thinking about him all day, and even went down to see him...returning empty handed and a bit disappointed...then BAM! HE comes to see ME. *crosses fingers* maybe this time the feeling is mutual. (don't get your hopes up)

~Did you really think that you could take it? Could you make it alone tonight. I never could have hoped for anything more. Be my angel if you can, all right?~

So my dad "fixed" my car. Not only was I having coolant problems, I have a headlight out. He said he "fixed" it. But the light is still out. And I'm just confused about my gauge...and the temperature of my vehicle. BAH! anyhow, I went to this family thing with Nicole. First of all, we had a conversation about how frustrated this thing with Tyler is for her. He went to homecoming tonight with a girl named Stef. It's been planned since last year...and at first she wasn't so upset about it...but recently...it's been a problem. She's been talking about how she misses getting all dolled up for school dances...and how she wanted to go...she had this whole plan that she'd go with Rob...and I'd go with AJ...but that never would have worked. Because #1 I think in the back of her head...she picked Rob because she knows that (even though Rob is one of her best friends) Tyler still gets jealous of him. #2 She only wanted to go because she could dump Rob on someone else...and be with Tyler...pushing Stef out of the picture. Now don't get me wrong. I don't blame her one bit for being jealous. I myself am an extremely jealous and selfish person. I think she's been too...open with Tyler and his chick friends. She hasn't really expressed to him how much it bothers her. Cause I know it does. ALL of his chick friends. Especially Stef...cause it's obvious that she likes him. So anyhow...(sorry...I went off on my own little tangent there) we went to this "family" thing. And it was cool. I love Nicole's dad. He's the coolest. And his girlfriend Becky is pretty awesome. She had her grandson and a little girl...not sure who she belonged to. But she was absolutely cute. light red hair and freckles. About 8 or 9. And the boy was maybe 2. Courtney attached herself to me. She was so funny. Smart...and obnoxious. If I ever have a kid...I want it to be just like her. Funny, and loud...and ya. I generally detest children. Because I've been subjected to living with my little brother who has an extreme case of hyperactivity attention disorder. Something like that. He curses. Worse than I do. And he throws fits...13yr old momma's boy. It's awful. I resent him. So I have low tolerance when it comes to kids. But she was just great. She told stories, and laughed with Nicole and I. We went on the hay ride with all the kids...and Courtney sat with me. I had the whole back of the wagon (a large group of girls) singing everything from NSYNC to Britney to Christina...Nelly, Eminem, Baha Men, Backstreet Boys...TLC. It was hilarious. They knew every song. And to think they started off with Old McDonald...after that, I gave her a piggy back ride, and pushed her on the swing. Later at Nicole's, we were all sitting around in the living room laughing...and she was laughing so hard...she choked on the pickle she was eating...she started laughing even harder...til she cried. It was fabulous. GHETTO FABULOUS!

~The world is only temporary...everyone is scared that there'll be no one to...~

Today has been wonderful. I got to see Chris. So the weekend was 100% better. and I hung out with little kids and had a good time. (hanson called...-that's the other Chris- and I refuse to call him back) I found out some throw away information on Mr. mini van man. He never told me the name of his BG chick because it's ANDREA! Nicole said she saw them holding hands at the homecoming game last night. It really doesn't surprise me. He's had this massive crush on her for awhile. He tried to pretend he didn't...but whatever. Either that or he's cheating on her with another girl who's going to BG. I don't care. Honestly. I'm sick of Dan and his wishy washy feelings. I'm sick of his crap. He'll say one thing and then deny it later. It's so worthless. I don't need that. I adore his friendship. But I'm not going to put up with his moods. And I really don't know what to do with his toothpaste. I thought about just dropping it off at the desk of his dorms...then I thought about taping it to his door. Nicole suggested squirting it all over and rubbing it in. I don't know. She offered him an invitation to the party...but he refused it. Said he'd get the information from me on-line. Well, I'm not going to be rude and uninvite him. I'll give him the info. But I'm not initiating any sort of conversation with him. If he's that worried about it...Andrea has an invitation. They can come together. Why not. I really...am at wits end with him. Andrea even said herself that she thought he was making too big of a deal about it. He's been complaining to both her and Alanna. *shrug* I'm still sorry. But that's about all I can say.

~You always say goodnight.~

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