11-14-00 Tuesday

~You can take me anywhere~

Let me repeat myself...out of sight, out of mind. It just doesn't work that way. Whether I like it or not, he's there. We're chillin in the lobby (when aren't we?) Lisa has to go to chorus. So we wait there with her...guess who comes in, pizza in hand, plops himself down right next to where I was and makes himself comfortable. You got it. Ben. First he asks me if I had to work tonight. (Usually I say yes, and he laughs at me) but I said no. And he kinda nods his head. I don't know why...whether I'm not really interested or whether I don't want to seem interested (and I just realized this) I never ask him anything. Occasionally at work, he'll come up and ask how my week has been. I'll tell him, and out of courtesy I'll ask about his. But I've never asked what he did...or whatever. Maybe I don't want to know. Anyhow, he busts open this fowl smelling pizza from the cafeteria...Rachel looks around (she was right in front of him) and goes, "what's that smell?" I think I was the only one who saw the pizza and traced the smell back to Ben. Aimee's like, "ugh...that's nasty" and I whisper to Rach..."it's Ben's pizza". She kinda looks over her shoulder and gets a big whiff of it. Makes the most hilarious face and tells Aimee. So as soon as we could, we got outta there. Went to lunch. Now, it's butt-f'n cold outside. I'm pretty sure I'll wake up tomorrow with a dry mouth, stuffy nose, and scratchy throat. So we ran across campus when we got back. Cause it's just awful out there. Seriously. and right after we got back to Reed, we had to go to Galvin. They have sociology and I have math. (for two hours) So we head over...and Ben is WAY ahead of me, so I'm thinking "it's cool you don't have to look at him anymore today". I go in the damn building and start climbing the stairs half way up, he's there...going extremely slowly up the steps...I won't say what I'm assuming. But I look at him and say, "Ben (his last name...I busted out with the full name) you are too SLOW!" and stomped up on past him. While all this is going on, I'm praying to God that we don't have a pop quiz. I didn't understand the homework...I NEVER understand the homework. So I sit down and immediately, he whips out the quiz. I actually did pretty well. Missed 3 (which is WAY better than I've ever done in that class) It was...insane. Then I got to sit for and hour and a half taking notes. (math is...bad.) I drove the mini-van again. My car is ghetto. One headlight, makes this knocking noise, always smells like maple syrup (oil). What's up with that???

~Watch your mouth. Hold your tongue. Some things are better left unsaid.~

I was just thinking about the play we have to see on Saturday or Sunday. The one theatre class (that Laura and Brad are in) is doing the childrens play. The Prince and the Puppet. (written by my theatre prof) The play made me think of Brad in tights. Then Brad being the "unhappy prince" (which is so fitting). Then Brad's silly story at The Posse Party. Then Lisa at Brad's house for 2 hours. She's really making progress. I'm so proud!!! Now who's left for me? The Posse...is just less and less desirable every day. There's this good looking guy in UVC. Lisa and I see him posting things on the bulletin board outside the lobby all the time. He's definitely attractive. You know...but he reminds me too much of Dan. The style is too Dan. Sweaters and baggy khakis. He's got Dan hair. (kinda not really) The funny thing...in UVC, we noticed he was looking over at us. (we sit in the back...and we're the only ones back there. So I'm not imagining things this time) I wanted to make a face. Stick out my tongue or something. But then I thought..."stupid! then he knows you've been looking at him" Hello! No more of this Captain Obvious crap. And then there's yellow polo-shirt boy. YSB...I wrote about him...prolly back in July or August. During orientation. I saw him in the lobby one day. I probably won't ever see him again either. Wasted two chances...hell, 3rd times the charm! Hmmm, who else...some guy in choir. I think he's ok. Kinda looks like Stevie. Has Stevie's jaw....facial structure. (that's about it) Or maybe that guy in theatre. (AHHHHH! too many boys!!!) New topic

~you say this is your life, well where is mine?~

So I get home from school, planned on taking a nap...but found out that Nicole called. She said she was going to come and get me...so she shows up with not only Rob but also Adam. (Adam is the younger brother of a guy I graduated with...Josh) They're like, "we're goin' shopping". So we went to the mall. The whole trip was the two boys sitting in the back making fun of my hat. Finally I let Adam wear it. He bought a sweatshirt. (We went in Gadzooks 3 times...seriously. I've been there the past 5 days straight. No more!) Nicole got Tyler part of his Christmas present. She bought Rob two t-shirts. We walked all over. Then went to eat at Arbys. Then we went back to the mall...finished up...(this is where the extremely large gum ball came in...Adam attempted to dislocate his jaw so he could fit the whole thing in his mouth. It turned into the battle of man vs. gum ball...which ended later in Wal-mart --the wrapping paper isle-- a disgusting display of green, spitty mush.) We went to Wal-mart. Got a few odds n ends. Nicole heard them over the loudspeaker say something about "security to the mens department" (that was where we were) They probably thought we were up to something. Adam in this bright orange sweatshirt and a rainbow beanie knocking over displays and anything else that happened to be in his way. It was pretty funny. While we were leaving, guess who we run into in the parking lot? The one and only psycho ex-boyfriend Chrissy-poo!!! He was with a group of kids. Didn't see me...saw Rob and called out his name. I hopped in the car thinking I narrowly escaped the evil clutches of my mental X-boy...but Rob had to go and point out that I was with them. So I looked over and said hi. (mlah) We went to Meijer...poked around. Nicole did more shopping, while the rest of us raised hell. I found the most awesome photo album. And we checked out in the self-service lane!!! Which is the coolest invention. You scan your own crap. Tap the screen...it's easy an infant could do it. Feed the money into a thingy like a soda machine. It gives you your change and receipt...the thing is...there are people standing around the "registers". Like watchers or something. You know, to make sure nobody is ripping them off. It's still pretty cool. It'll all be like this soon. No lovely cashiers to thank...darn. But think of all the high school kids who will be out of jobs. Anyhow, that was my evening. Pretty special. I need to go read some more. (so excited about that) Then I need to get a good night's sleep. I didn't go to bed until 2am. last night. That's not good. So I'll go now.

~Shut your mouth, burn your bridges. Throw your words like an attack and stab in the wait a second wait a second what's that I just heard? Nevermind. It's obviously worthless.~

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