What's on Your Mind???

05-27-03

~I'm so tired...~

I don't know why I'm starting this. I should be in bed. But I've got a lot of things on my mind right now. Just the whole weekend visit and the fact that I haven't heard from my new "boss" yet. Even though he said he'd call me on Saturday and tell me what time I should come in Tuesday (today)...So I'm a little bothered by it...a little nervous. Somewhat pissed off. I just don't know what to think. Laurie gives great advice though. She told me I should just get up early tomorrow and get ready like I'm going in for opening. Then call right before I get there to see if they want me to come in. And if they decided that they didn't need anymore employees afterall, at least I'll look nice to go out and do more job hunting. That's a plan. And like I said, I should be getting some fucking sleep right now so I can get up that early. But I'm not tired at all. Ok, I am tired.

~of having to live without you...~

I'm tired of reliving my past. That's what I did almost all weekend. Sometimes it's fun to talk about the crazy shit we did in highschool. Laurie and I had a decent talk about that tonight. But I keep getting into these dead end conversations with people about how bad my fucked up relationship history is. And then I got upset and I was drunk and I almost cried. I hate that. I feel like hell right now and all I want to do is just say fuck it to everything, dig myself a hole, crawl inside and die. So what's on YOUR mind???

~but I don't mind, sleeping to dream about you.~

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