Bring me to Life


05-17-03

~I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me.~

I started a post earlier that was...blah. Just me complaining about being out of smokes. The only thing that was really important about it was my great find of the day!!! duh duh duuuuuuhhhhh!!! Are you ready? Jason Mraz is playing at Bogarts on June 12th. Oh, and I'll be there. You bet your bottom dollar Annie! So, if anyone would like to join me in an evening of enlightenment, you're welcome. Cause I know I'm the only one...out of all of my buds who listens to Mraz. But that's ok, you're forgiven. Just open your ears and come to the show with me. I won't let you down. I was just talking to Jess about it. Explaining to him that...in no way am I a groupie. I would love to just sit and pick Mraz's brain. An intelligent conversation with the man. Is that too much to ask for? Even though, if placed in the situation of actually meeting him, I'd probably just piss my pants and ask for an autograph. Cause I'm a loser baby so why don't you kill me. Seriously...I just get something fantastic from his lyrics. Not just the lyrics though. It's all about the delivery. I'm a sucka for words. And as I just told Jess, accoustic guitar is like an aphrodesiac (ya, that's spelled wrong. So what!) for me. He's clever, witty, and intelligent. And that just...does it for me. It's a good thing Mraz is also goodlooking. Prime example, Dave Matthews...to me, in a typical setting, no music, no guitar, just based on looks alone, he's not all that attractive. But if you add all of those things into the equasion, he's super sexy. Or John Mayer. Honestly, he's just cute in a baby faced way. I want to pinch his cheeks and send him home to his momma. But when he starts telling me that my body is a wonderland!!!! I melt. But with Mraz, whew. It's the whole thing. So ya. I'm not a groupie. I really do like the music. If you want a groupie example...Hmmm, that's tough. Ok, this is lame but the lead singer of Godsmack. He's pretty f'n hot. But UGH! I hate their music. That's a horrible example cause I'd never go to see them live just b/c I think the singer is hot. Ok, here's a good one. Justin Timberlake. He's pretty damn hot. I'd see him live if there was a chance of meeting up with him afterwards. (hahaha) And I listen to his stuff. But not because I respect the talent aspect. He can sing and dance...I'll give him that. But that whole n*sync thing turns me off. If you're really talented, you write your stuff and you don't need all kinds of froo froo like dancing and pyro. It's good without that extra shit. I'd pick Mraz over Timberlake anyday. But I could talk about this shit for hours. The only "celebrity" that I'd kill to get in his pants is Brandon Boyd and we all know that. But see, we've got that thing again. I wouldn't HAVE to get into his pants to be satisfied. A good conversation rules over that. (this is just crude entertainment btw. I really don't think it's a possibility and or set goals around banging famous people) I just think...the more that I like bands for what they're doing or saying...the more attractive certain members of those bands tend to become. (I'm chuckling at the ridiculousness I've conjured). So ya. Stupid rambling about pop culture. It's one of my many talents. Talking about nothing important...you know. Speaking of which...

~How long must you wait for it...~

So I'm on a big horoscope kick all of a sudden. I was talking to Jessie about the downside of being a libra earlier. And so I looked some stuff up. I hate to really believe in any of this mumbo jumbo but sometimes...it's so close to actually being true that it's just frightening. Here's the description of a libra. I'll delete the filler and just leave important things.

"Beauty, balance and harmony are important for a Libra. There is a great need to share, to be fair and impartial. Even with this need for calm, Libra remains a very active, outwardly radiating personality. With all of these positives here, how can the sign of The Scales be unbalanced? Sometimes loving Libra can need others too much and fall into the trap of dependency. The need for partnership leads this sign to falsely believe that there is no personhood with a partner. The temptation is to give away too much to others and reserve too little for oneself. Then life reels out of control. Trying to be too fair undermines decision-making abilities. Libra may fear making the wrong choice or upsetting others. Inward-focused energy restores balance. Libras thrive when they give themselves permission to take care of themselves."

That was the shortest I could get it down to. But it's shocking just how true all of that is about me. I'm constantly bitching about giving too much and not getting anything in return. I always try to make everybody happy even if that may cause me to be unhappy in the end. And the whole "relationship" reference! I am the definition of co-dependent. No matter how much I try to deny it. There have been several other definitions of a Libra that fall pretty damn close to describing my personality 100%. That's just Yahoo. I've read that Libras are extremely dramatic and starved for attention. It's all true. I won't deny that. But anyhow, in my curiosity about my own sign, I looked up a few others (particularly guys) X's...maybe just to figure out what the hell went wrong. Tim is an Aries...we'll start with that. It says that the compatibility between Aries and Libra is "complex". Aries tends to be "impulsive" or "spontaneous". They are "full of passion" and "have a need for independence". And often "rage out of control". I don't know how much that really explains for me. Yes, our relationship was complex. Extremely impulsive...and he was full of passion at first. But that died off. Maybe he had a "need for independence". hmm...ok, Aquarius...that would be Jesse. That really summed him up well. "Has a need to accommodate others" The sign of a "rugged individualist". True true. Then there's the lucky Saggitarius who is one of the few signs that Libra is actually compatible with. Go figure. Guess who that is. Kyle. But I stopped writing things down by the time I got that far. I did write down my "romance scope" though. That hit a little too close to home. I'll quote, "Your current aspect injects a touch of humor into a potentially passionate and intense situation. You may find that you and your current 'lover' have SO much chemistry that you may need to 'diffuse' the situation before you both explode". EEEEKKKK! No explosions please!

~when we said our first hello, little did we know, love was just a glance away a warm embracing dance away...~

Ok, I officially feel like a cheeseball because A: I'm taking stock in internet horoscopes and B: I'm listening to Sinatra. Strangers in the night...hahaha. Oh hell, I am a goon. I downloaded some of my favorite classics. Really classic classics. Sinatra, Etta James, Ella Fitzgerald. Even some new classics. Peter Cincotti. Oh ya. I rock out to adult contemporary jazz. I can't help it sometimes. geez. I'm just in the mood right now. I've been listening to a lot of stuff like this lately. Not that Coldplay really compares to Ol' Blue Eyes...but I was listening to that...and John Mayer, uh, Mraz (of course) Dashboard, DMB, Pete Yorn, ya. You get the idea. I've been listening to a lot of sappy shit and bawling my eyeballs out. That one Coldplay song...In My Place...that killed me earlier today. I cried for at least a half an hour. ooooh, here's a good one. Luck Be a Lady. Ok, I'm sorry. Too much cheese. I'm done.

~Luck be a lady tonight. Luck be a lady tonight. Luck, if you've ever been a lady to begin with, Luck be a lady tonight.~

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