03-02-00 Thursday

~So much to say...~

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~Crash into me~

*sigh*
You know when I start off with a sigh that you're in for a long entry. I'll start with yesterday.
-Wednesday-
We had "club pictures". So I got to wear my beautiful chamber dress to our senior meeting. Not pretty... but if it takes pictures to get out of doing anything 1st and 2nd period then why not. speaking of 2nd period... Laurie came in with a bit of bad news. She didn't want to have to be the one to tell me. but she did. I guess during the S.A.D.D. picture, she walked in and sat down next to Dan... He proceded to bite her head off. She informs me that he jumped down her throat, and she hadn't even said a word. "I don't like Laura like that. and I don't want to go to prom with her." HELLO! where did this come from? I hadn't even asked him. I haven't mentioned my feelings to him since... January??? Arrogant much? I find it funny that he would just assume... Unless he's read this journal... he wouldn't know a thing. and I never gave him the address because he's not much of a computer person. He's so shady. but that's not all. I found out in lunch that he was drunk. drunk at school! I'm nothing but disappointed in this. (ironically, S.A.D.D. stands for Students Against Drunk Driving) It's a shame.

~and I waste my time on no one. and you think i really care.~

After school, Laurie and I got into one of our famous parking lot dicussions. (about prom) it just so happened to be that Jason Parent (my sophomore year crush who graduated but still comes back to help the band) was there. She hops in his truck and asks if he'd go with me... ok, i didn't even ask. But he agreed. he only has to ask his girlfriend's permission. that's why i'm having second thoughts. I have a feeling it might be a little strange. Plus, it doesn't really compare to my "ideal senior prom". I have this idea that it should be special. every little detail. especially the date. and with Jason, it's not. Don't get me wrong. He's a great guy. and he's absolutely beautiful... (what am i thinking?) but he's taken, and I just think it would be a little uncomfortable.

~everything comes tumbling down~

It got really cold in the parking lot, so we went to chill at her place and finish our talk. Ultimately, we decided to go shopping. but when I went out to my car, I found a little note taped to my window stating,

Laura,
Give me a call
when you get home
from Laurie's.
Chris

I looked at her, she looked at me, and we both started laughing. She's like, "psychotic much?" But I ended up calling him on the cell when we were almost to the mall. I asked what he needed... "nothin'"... OK! You come to my friend's house,(no one knew we were there) tape a freakin' note to my car window, then tell me you didn't really NEED to talk. Needless to say, Laurie and I had a great time shopping. We were a little late for youth group due to the fact that we both decided to change clothes because it was super cold outside. She dropped me off and ran home to change while I did. Guess who shows up in the 15 minutes it took for me to change. Chris. I'm not even gonna start that story. We'll just say he came over here earlier and watched me click around. I was archivin' and paying no attention to him what-so-ever. It makes me feel bad. but I have things to do, and I can't just drop everything to listen to him whine. I couldn't update. He was sitting right behind me. So I waited until now. *yawn* I have NOTHING against him. and I don't mind him coming over once in awhile. He's just... here a lot. *sigh*
You know it's good when it begins AND ends with a sigh...

~The closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me~

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