Tub Talk

03-21-01 Wednesday

~She paints her nails and she don't know he's got her best friend on the phone. She'll wash her hair, his dirty clothes are all he gives to her. And he's got posters on the wall of all the girls he wished she was and he means everything to her.~

I spent far too much money on cd's last night. I got Taproot (which his very screamy and hard-core type stuff) The single for that Request Line song. I dig Black Eyed Peas. And I got American Hi-Fi. I love that song Flavor of the Weak. It's been on the video at work. Those work videos are killing me. I can't get the songs out of my head...so I have to go out and buy the cd's. I also got Sade. mmmm, good music. I'm happy. My mom got the new Dave Matthews, so I'll burn a copy of that too. Geez. Ahh, let's see, I'm tired. (when am I not?) But more than usual this week because I've been house sitting. Ya. I thought it was gonna be shits and giggles. But her dog...is the most annoying creature. I'm about this close to locking her upstairs for the rest of the week. Only 4 more days...God give me strength. It was great...Saturday night we had a few people over. Nicole and Channie cooked, while I ran errands and stuff. Nicole actually stayed that night. So it wasn't so bad. But then Sunday rolled around. I still had Jon, Kyle, and Nicole there. But everyone left, and I was alone...in this house. And it was a little freaky. I won't lie. She wouldn't stay Monday night either. Or last night. I don't think she's gonna stay any more. (I understand, she doesn't really dig the setting and she's got a lot of other things to worry about right now) It's not so fun anymore though. Cause I have all this responsibility. I have to get up at like 7am every morning, and let the dog out. And then she's in my face so I can't go back to sleep. It's not fun when there's a smelly rotweiler constantly in your face...slobbery and eck. It's a pain in the ass. And frankly, I don't think having the house, and the big screen, and the digital cable, or any of the other things that come with independence is enough to compensate for the dog's annoying behavior. I have to sneak out of the house. I can't shower there, cause all she has is a tub. So I have to come home anyway and bathe. That's why I'm here right now. But I feel bad when I leave grace (the dog) alone. I fell guilty. Ok, enough complaining. It's almost over. On to the good stuff. Hmm...

~Don't wait for the sun cause it could turn black any day...you're all that I wanted.~

Kir came over last night. The first night she came over...and we ended up in the bathroom talking. (hence the title "Tub Talk") I miss her. She's just one of those friends, that no matter how much we've fought in the past, and no matter how much we tend to disagree, I can't NOT be her friend. And I've had people question my reasoning...but I love her to death. It's just one of those things. It seems as though things have been better for her this semester. That's good. I think space definitely helps friends like us. Cause when we do get a chance to see each other, we appreciate it more. (I'll speak for myself...-I- appreciate it more) Anyhow, we just caught each other up on the goings on in our lives...good and bad. We ran to Meijer...and got cheese, oj, beef stick, and aspirin. And she told me that if I got freaked out, that I could call her. But I watched some tv...and I went to sleep. Talked to Kyle a little bit. He got grounded....ironically until Sunday (which would be the last day I have the house) And he can have people over...he just can't leave. Hint Hint. His dad is all about meeting me I guess. He asked Kyle if I had three eyes and why I never came in. I don't think I really want to meet the parents. There are too many of them to begin with (broken family...father is about to get remarried...and mother has a boyfriend) and I'm just not too secure with myself I suppose. I'm definitely afraid they'll hate me...or judge me...or tell Kyle he could do better. He could. Ugh. There goes the lack of self esteem. I don't know what it is about that. Sometimes I can be extremely arrogant, and other times I'm just down on myself. And that's probably not healthy. But...moving on. My mom was at the house the one night when Jon and Kyle got there. I don't think Kyle was very...I don't know, he got really quiet, and sort of snuck away. I don't blame him. I thought she'd be gone by the time they got there. But she said later, "he's a cutie. Why's he so quiet?" Hmm, I don't know. He's really not. Happy St. Patrick's Day to me, I think I found the pot of gold.

~Got nothin' to lose this time and I'm bored with the same old lines. I never know what to do or what to say to you. One look and you'll knock me out. Put me on the floor with a ten count.~

I got my grades from my winter quarter classes. I am a freakin' genius. (ok...maybe that was the arrogance I mentioned before) My worst grade was a B- in history. The rest...A's. I'm awesome. I even got an A in poetry. That definitely made the day better. Even though I have to go to the campus today and pay my fees, and get my books for Monday. Even though Kyle has to work...it's still a good day. No matter what. I hope I can do just as well Spring quarter...with 21 credit hours...it's gonna be tough. I'll have less time to work, and even less time to be social. But I'll make time. And I'm planning to get another job this summer...whew. I'm gonna be burnt out. But I need to put myself through this. So I can shake off that tendency to be a couch potato...that procrastination...that idle nature of mine. Plus I'm getting bumped up to AMIT at the store. So I'll have at least 20 hours a week there (it's rare to get that many hours there.) and I'm getting a grand old pay raise. So that plus a part time job...I should be able to actually save up some money. Lord it's a miracle. And now I have some stupid guy messaging me on ICQ. Greekman, he's 35. From Greece...ugh DELETE! People...leave me alone...I'm trying to update. And yet again, I almost lost everything I've typed. So I'm just gonna stop. That's pretty much all I had to say anyways. If you need me, call here. And mom will probably give you the number at Kim's. (asking for it might be a good thing too) I won't be there much today though. I've got a lot to do. I need to get a hold of Lisa...and I wanted to burn that cd for Woten. He's leaving soon. UGH! This is too much. Not enough time in the day.

~You think I'd leave your side baby, you know me better than that. You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees. I wouldn't do that. Oh when you're cold I'll be there, hold you tight to me.~

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